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72 in ’12: After All

As that Sound of Music song goes, “Let’s start from the very beginning… A very good place to start…”

How I wish I knew when it began. Then maybe I would be in a better place to understand everything now. I have known you for quite a while and I never even entertained the thought of seeing you as more than a friend. That is unusual for me.

You have always been there… you were the one I told all my stories to… you were the one I would bother when there was nothing to do… you were the one who appeared for not real reason, greeted me good morning and asked me what was up… you were the one who was always there. Yet you were the one who I never saw.

Until now. Now you’re all I see.

I guess, in a way, I have Batman to thank for this. And before that, Old Man. And before that, D. And before that, the Abstract Artist. And before the Abstract Artist, I guess I have to thank He-Who-Broke-My-Heart. Since the beginning is a very good place to start, I really have to say this – when I really look at it, the beginning started with the end.

One Hope

He broke my heart. He broke it so badly that there were days when I thought I would never get over it. It took me to a place that made me think I was meant to be alone. After all, how could a four-year relationship end in less than 5 minutes at 5:30, one April morning?

I remember when we broke up more than 2 years ago. Why we broke up isn’t important. What is important is the fact that back then, he wasn’t ready to let go. So he fought for me – no matter how many times I told him that I needed time and I needed space. When we ended things this year, a part of me couldn’t help but feel cheated – because this time, it was over for him. This time, he was the one who wanted to let go. This time, he was ready. So he just… left.

Why was it so easy for him to leave? Why was it so easy for him to fall in love with someone else? Why was it so easy for him to move on? Why was it so easy for him to forget what we had? Why was it so easy for him?

How come it had to be so hard for me?

Admittedly, the version of me who reacted to the whole thing was not the best, to put it mildly. I tried to move on, and, like most things, the intention was good, but the execution left a lot to be desired. I ended up feeling more hurt and more used than I’ve ever been before and now that that particular phase has passed, I can honestly say that it was no one else’s fault but mine. I want to point fingers and say that the Abstract Artist was an adulterer and that D was a cheating, indecisive prick. I want to point fingers and say that Old Man had no balls and that Batman was a dick. But at the end of the day, matter how many fingers I point at other people, at least one finger would always point back at me. It was my decision to be with them.

Joy was right. I had lessons to learn with each and every one of them.

With the Abstract Artist and with D, I learned that no amount of it “feeling right” would change the fact that taking something that was already someone else’s was wrong. I did not learn with the Abstract Artist, so I made the same mistake with D. And I probably would have made the same mistake again had not learned that I deserved to be someone’s choice, and not just an option. With them, I learned that I was worth it.

With Old Man and Batman, I learned that past behavior will predict future behavior. If he was a coward with so many other girls, he would still be a coward with me. If he just wanted sex 8 years ago, chances are, sex was all he wanted now too. I did not not learn with Old Man, so I made same mistake with Batman. I thought they would be different now, but they weren’t. With them I learned that people will not change for me.

With He-Who-Broke-My-Heart, I learned that we can only change for ourselves. But more that, I learned that when we do change, we should change for the right reasons.

One Truth

And now I have come full circle. Now I come back to you.

You were everything I said I didn’t want. I have always been one for labels, but I cannot seem to have one for you. There are a lot of things I want to say to you, but I think I’ll save it for another day. You are a different story and I will tell it at another time.

We are very different, you and I… And yet sometimes, it seems like the lessons we have to learn are the same. Maybe these are some of them…

…That we have to live in the present, which means we have to let go of the past.
…That we are better for having once been broken.
…That we have to stop running after the wrong things in order for the right ones to catch us.
…That we have to give people the chance to love us.
…And, at the end of it all, we have to realize that maybe, just maybe, it doesn’t have to be so hard after all.

Maybe.

One Secret

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Turning up the love, PhoenixFire.

Turns on everything else.

Love up,
The Universe

*          *          *

Dear Universe,

It’s like up to the max ❤

On The Edge,
PhoenixFire

 

 

Blessed Be…

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54 in ’12: V is for Vengeance – First Date, Day 6

I Mean YOU. Seriously.

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April 29, 2012

12:20 am
HIM:
anu yan, restaurant?

Me:
Yup. Japanese fusion. Gutom na gutom na ako kanina, hindi naman ako makakain ng maayos.

Hanggang 1:30 lang kami today. Hehe


12:38 am
HIM:
and then?

Me:
Home na

HIM:
ah.. uwi ka na sa condo?

Me:
Nagkakasala lang ako sa diyos na hindi ko pinaniniwalaan… Wala akong ginawa the whole night kung hindi manlait ng tayo.

Yup, uwi na ko sa condo after.

HIM:
u must be having so much fun.. =D

HIM:
san ba ung condo?

Me:
Hahahaha… Ngayon, oo, kasi nag kick in na yung coffee and the biogesic.

The condo’s in pasig.


1:08 am
HIM:
i can get to u in 30min if u want

Me:
We’ll see, baby. Parang nabuhayan kami ng dugo. But thank you so much – even just for offering 🙂

HIM:
alright.. if not in a while then tomorrow.. i also wanna be in bed after a couple of hours.. would be nice to see u tonight..

Me:
I know sweetie 🙂

If you want to sleep na, it’s okay. Text me lang before you drift off to lalaland

HIM:
alright then.. kiss*

Me:
🙂

HIM:
u sure ju dont want me to drive to u now? i can massage u.. =p

Me:
I’m thinking about it, baby… But I don’t want you to lose sleep over waiting for my decision 🙂

HIM:
i’ll tell u when i wanna sleep

Me:
Alright 🙂

HIM:
ayaw mo ng massage ah.. sige ka.. hahaha.. may ganon tlg.. =p

Me:
Lol! I so need a massage na. Sakit na ng katawan ko.

HIM:
grabe tamang-tama.. after that im just going to watch u peacefully sleep.. haay ganda..


1:30 am
Me:
That’s a very nice picture you have in your head 🙂

HIM:
i will head to the shower now baby, after that, it’s either the car or the bed.. kiss*


1:15 am
HIM:
im just thinking if we spend our half day now, we can still go out tomorrow, and come home early at night so u can rest for work.. kiss*

Me:
Awww… Thank you for thinking about me so much, baby. But we’re so not done and parang hindi ako makakapag-graceful exit 😉 Lol

HIM:
up to u baby.. it’s d same.. if u can’t be off as early tonight, late na rin tayo makakapag meet tomorrow.. =D

Me:
What time do you want to meet ba tomorrow?


2:02 am
HIM:
?? di ba sabi mo 12 to 12.. or kung gusto mo gabi nalang.. but that wont give that much time as planned.. kaw bahala baby.. =D
Either u rest late tonight and wake up late tomorrow, then we meet for a short while.. or we meet now, u rest after massage.. wake up, then spend longer time together.. either way, we get to mee.. =D

Me:
Can we meet around 4? Bawi lang ako ng tulog 🙂

HIM:
4pm then.. =D

Me:
Kewl. Just let me know where

HIM:
malls seem to be complete package..

Me:
What?

HIM:
i mean malls are good right? coffee, movies, walk.. =D

Me:
Oh, yeah. Which mall?

HIM:
i dunno.. im not a maller baby.. i’ll think it up.. =D


2:17 am
Me:
Okay 🙂


2:55 am
HIM:
kiss*

Me:
Hey Baby 🙂 About to sleep na?

HIM:
not yet.. still playing.. maybe in an hour.. =D

Me:
What are you playing?

HIM:
old pc game baby.. counter strike

Me:
Naglalaro ka pala nyan

HIM:
why baby?

Me:
I used to play that. Jan ko na-confirm ang pagiging directionally-challenged ko

HIM:
so u dont drive too?

Me:
I don’t know how to drive, sweetie. That’s why I either commute or walk wherever I plan on going. At pag nagtuturo ako ng directions sa cab driver, naco-confuse pa talaga ako sa left and right.

HIM:
oh.. ok.. hehe

Me:
Winner diba?

Nakahiga na ako sa table. Haha

HIM:
u’r funny baby.. bakit ka hihiga sa table?


3:15 am
Me:
Sabi sayo eh… Pag kelangan ko nang humiga, kahit saan talaga hihiga ako.

HIM:
u cud hav been getting a massage by now.. =p

Me:
:p I know, baby


3:36 am
Me:
Hey baby… On my way home na


3:49 am
HIM:
tc baby.. tell me when u’r home..


4:08 am
Me:
Hi… I’m in the condo na 🙂

HIM:
sleep well baby… kiss*

Me:
Thanks baby…

Me:
Syempre nanunuod pa talaga ako ng glee ;p

Good night, baby 🙂

HIM:
at least baby u made the most out of ur weekend.. =D

Me:
😀

9:47 am
Me:
Hi 🙂

10:35 am
HIM:
u’r not supposed to be awake baby

Me:
But I am na eh… What are you doing up already?

HIM:
i woke up.. trying to get back to sleep..

Me:
Me too… Sleep pa baby

HIM:
i wud meet u now and sleep w u.. that sounds more doable.. ang lungkot dito eh..

Me:
Why is it sad there?

HIM:
wala ka


10:47 am
Me:
Asus :p We’ll see each other naman later 🙂

HIM:
later we wont have time to sleep..

Me:
But at least I’ll be with you.. Don’t let the day start out with you feeling sad, baby 🙂


2:29 pm
Me:
Hi 🙂


3:01 pm
HIM:
baby im on my way now.. wala akong dalang kotse.. where do u wanna meet? Makati or MOA?

Me:
Makati. I don’t think I can find my way to moa

HIM:
alright.. u wanna meet in RS? i dont think i can find my walls in malls..


3:26 pm
Me:
Haha… Sure


3:47 pm
HIM:
where r u baby?

Me:
On the road pa. You there na?

HIM:
almost.. i’ll prolly meet u in SBucks corner paseo.. =D


4:01 pm
Me:
Be there in 5 mins

HIM:
aww baby mauuna ka pa sakin

Me:
Hahaha… Ok. I’ll be in sbux. Lol

Me:
Oh, sbux paseo is closed.

HIM:
oh my.. u wanna sit in d fastfood?

Me:
Don’t worry, I’ll find somewhere to make tambay

Me:
Went to 711 near pb com first

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Funny how you messaged my friend to apologize for hurting me. I’ve been thinking about it for a couple of days now and I still cannot wrap my head around how utterly senseless that was.

And how I handle my anger is none of your business. Just like what you feel about her is none of our business and what we think of you (and her) is none of yours.

It is unfortunate that you hurt me. It is more unfortunate that every single move you’ve done after that was unbelievably stupid. What did you expect? That I would curl up in a corner and cry my eyes out? That I would keep quiet? Working in close proximity to me for 7 years should have told you otherwise.

I was never a victim of circumstance and I never will be. THIS is how I deal with my anger… And if you’re biding your time, waiting for the anger to wane, then I guess you’ll be waiting for a really, Really, REALLY long time. Good luck to that.

I’m angry. I’m also vicious and vengeful. You said it yourself… You had it coming. Be a man. Deal with it.

Oh, but you’re not, are you, Old Man?



Ciao Bella!

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53 in ’12: V is for Vengeance – A Sorta Fairytale, Day 5

I Was The Best You’ll Never Have

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April 28, 2012

12:04 am
HIM:
i hope those skills can be consumed for me from a cold and (word undisclosed) baby of mine.. =p

Me:
Oh I’ll make sure I’ll always have enough social skills for you, baby :

HIM:
promise?

12:26 am
Me:
I promise sweetheart

HIM:
can i see u on d weekend?

Me:
Sunday evening?

Me:
Assuming that She and I actually separate before the weekend ends

HIM:
that will be nice.. any ideas?

Me:
Hmm… Not really. What do you want to do?

HIM:
u mean baka hindi matuloy?

Me:
u mean baka hindi matuloy? – is this because of the message about She and I not separating? Sorry, nalost lang ako bigla.

HIM:
yep

Me:
Baka kasi magtulad nung last week – from Somerset, we went straight to powerplant. So naghiwalay kami around 11 pm sunday night.

HIM:
e di kahit madaling araw pa kayo maghiwalay.. haha

Me:
Ahaha… Goodluck naman sa akin nun. Hassle kasi – I have work on Monday and then I go back on holiday on Tuesday.

HIM:
oo nga no.. di ka pede magpuyat.. =(

Me:
Well, not super late and not often. Last week I was with Eloi and didn’t get home until 2 am. 10 am na ako nakapasok the next day. Haha

HIM:
what is ur idea for us?

Me:
Hmm… I don’t know… Probably just hang out and talk. What do you want to do?

HIM:
hang out and talk baby.. tell me whatever u wanna do.. i want u to be comfortable and happy..

1:48 am
HIM:
baby, tulog ka na?

7:16 am
Good morning, baby 🙂

HIM:
good morning baby.. preppin’ to travel?

Me:
Homaygad! I just woke up and session starts at 9! :p

I’ve been semi-packed since yesterday, so little things nalang ngayon. Magkakasakit ata ako.

How’s work?

7:33 am
HIM:
it’s fine.. petiks.. may session ka pa today?

Me:
Yup. 4 hours pa. Or at least that’s what it says in the contract. Pero we’ll probably end it by 10:30 or 11. Sana talaga maabutan ko ang 1:15 bus to manila

HIM:
gabi ka na pala dadating dito..

7:53 am
Me:
Around 7 siguro. Why?

HIM:
just curious.. =D

Me:
;p

HIM:
i wud meet u tonight and spend time w u.. kaya lang di pede e

Me:
You’d that? 🙂

HIM:
yeah baby.. kaya lang may lakad ka eh.. i’d wanna spend the weekend w u..

8:15 am
Me:
I’d want to spend time with you too, baby, but I can’t flake out on my friends. But we’ll find time.

8:33 am
HIM:
ok babe.. quality time? =D

Me:
Yes, baby, quality time 🙂

HIM:
i’d like that.. =D
Kiss*

Me:
🙂

8:50 am
HIM:
gano kayo katagal ng friends mo magkasama?

Me:
What do you mean?

HIM:
i mean from tonight magkakasama na kayo diba? until what time kayo magba-bonding?

Me:
Usually 3 or 4 in the morning :p

HIM:
oh.. and ur plans after that?

9:03 am
Me:
I go home na 🙂

HIM:
hmm.. and?

Me:
And… I’ll go to sleep na 🙂

HIM:
ooh.. hehe.. the?

HIM:
ooh.. hehe.. then?

9:15 am
Me:
And then… I don’t know :))

HIM:
chos.. di nga

9:40 am
HIM:
busy baby?

Me:
Sorry, baby… Lam mo naman resident dance instructor 🙂 But I’m done na.

Still in the office?

HIM:
yes baby.. im bored..

Me:
Why naman?

HIM:
i dont have anything to do.. and i miss you..

Me:
Can’t you go home yet?

10:00 am
HIM:
pauwi na rin.. siguro if u were here i’ll spend time w u

Me:
Haven’t you ever considered that I might not live up to that picture you have of me in your head?

HIM:
isn’t that the same thing w me? i may not even be able to live up w ur impression of me now..

Me:
You didn’t answer my question 😛

HIM:
that means i considered that baby..

Me:
Hmm… 🙂

HIM:
do u think u wud disappoint me?

10:15 am
Me:
Honestly, I don’t know. I hope I don’t, but it’s always a possibility. I’m not exactly the easiest person to be with.

HIM:
it’s d same thing w me baby.. im not all good.. u’r probably better than me in this kinds of things.. being sweet an close w another soul..

Me:
I’m so damaged in my own way, baby

HIM:
haven’t u considered that we might just end up hurting?

10:30 am
Me:
I’ve considered it

HIM:
i know u have..

Me:
Have you?

HIM:
i have.. reason why im asking for quality time..

Me:
I will make time for you, you know… I can’t promise that it’ll be a lot because I’m running out of time in so many ways, but it’s still what we do with it that matters, I guess

HIM:
we still need to get to know each other baby

Me:
I know that

HIM:
that’s good..

Me:
You still bored? :p

HIM:
not anymore baby.. however, i feel bad that we’re not hugging now..

10:47 am
Me:
I know how you feel..

HIM:
i wanna kiss u.. ok lng ba? sa txt lang naman malakas ang loob ko eh..

Me:
As me again when I’m with you

HIM:
kailan?

Me:
Just not tonight, baby

HIM:
i know that =D

Me:
:p

HIM:
do u think u wud wanna kiss me? =p

Me:
I’m not telling you that over text 🙂

HIM:
aww.. busted.. =p

Me:
Ahahaha

HIM:
what is my baby doin now?

11:00 am
Me:
Burning cd manuals for the participants 🙂 we’re about to end eh. (next statement undisclosed)

HIM:
oh.. i know the picture.. =D

Me:
Ahahaha… I mean, I love what I do, but when we do these things and people start crying, I end up crying din. Lol

HIM:
haha.. tlg.. effective ah

Me:
Lol. Iyakin nga kasi ako eh

HIM:
im thinking if get to see that..

Me:
Na umiyak ako?

HIM:
yep..

Me:
Wait, can you access you tube right now?

HIM:
nope.. prolly later at home

Me:
Okay. Let me know when you have access. I’ll make you look for something.

And about the crying thing, it’s impossible not see me cry – if you watch me read a book, I’ll eventually cry over it too :p

HIM:
baka naman kuwentuhan lng kita maiyak ka na..

11:18 am
Me:
Ahahahaha… Hindi malayo

11:33 am
Me:
Hi baby 🙂 Whatcha doin?

HIM:
im on my way home babe.. u? done w the training?

Me:
Almost… Commencement exercises na.

HIM:
wat do u train?

Me:
Everything from leadership to advanced supervision to Work Attitude and Values Enhancement to Personal Enhancement to Change Management to Teambuilding.

And very recently, Problem Solving and Decision Making. pero once ko palang nagagawa yun.

HIM:
what’s all the dancing abt?

Me:
It’s a teambuilding. Some of the activities involve dancing kasi

11:47 am
HIM:
that’s cool.. =D

Me:
E I’m (description undisclosed) and I dance so madalas I get to do the whole Teach and Learn thing.

HIM:
will i see that too? =D

Me:
Haha… Nooooo!

HIM:
aww baby.. why?

12:02 pm
Me:
Aahaha… Wala lang. Kakahiya :p

HIM:
baby promise ko sau pag nagkita tayo mawawala lahat ng hiya mo sakin

Me:
Lol! Shet, natawa talaga ako dun!

Baby, we’re done! And we passed!

HIM:
yehey! gujab baby! =D

12:20 pm
HIM:
im ready for ur utube dear

Me:
Look for “wear sunscreen” and then choose the one with english subtitles.

HIM:
bakit ka natawa baby?

Me:
Dun sa sinabi mo na pag nagkita tayo mawawala lahat ng hiya ko sayo. Lol

HIM:
bakit baby?

12:31 pm
Me:
Wala. Natawa lang talga ako. Bawal???

HIM:
ha? girlie nanaman?

Me:
Hindi girlie yun! Natawala lang talaga ako. As in spontaneously natawa lang ako.

At hindi bawal maging girly paminsan-minsan at girl pa din naman ako. Mejo unusual lang nga.

HIM:
bakit ayaw sabihin saken?

Me:
Hindi sa ayaw ko sabihin sayo noh. Wala talagang reason. Natawa lang talaga ako. :))

HIM:
baby u’r lying.. oh well..

Me:
I am not lying!!!

HIM:
ok.. bakit ba kasi ayaw mo ipakia sakin yung sayaw?

Me:
Because it’s embarrassing! Haha… And if there’s music naman anywhere we go, I begin dancing naman – hindi lang nga choreographed

HIM:
well then if u dont wanna show it to me then teach it so i can do it for myself so i can watch me do it.. ok

12:46 pm
Me:
Hahaha… Do you dance ba?

HIM:
if i get taught i do.. not easy.. embarassing actually

Me:
Weh

HIM:
yeah.. pagnagkita tayo aalisin ko lahat ng hiya ko sayo at sasayaw ako kung tuturuan mo ako..

Me:
Sige 🙂

HIM:
cool.. i told u aalisin ko lahat ng hiya mo at papasayawin kita.. one way or another.. =D

Me:
Lol. Sige lang 🙂

HIM:
kiss me baby.. when we meet..

Me:
Tell me again when we meet

1:01 pm
Me:
Baby, don’t you want to sleep and rest?

HIM:
baka sapak maabot ko.. scary..

HIM:
sige na.. i wont disturb u anymore.. have fun baby

Me:
Baby, you’re not disturbing me. I love texting with you… But I don’t want to keep you from sleeping 🙂

HIM:
u’r not keeping me from sleep hin.. u me feel peaceful.. until i fall asleep

Me:
I’m glad you feel peaceful, baby, not matter how kulit I am

HIM:
bka nga ikaw na ang nakukulitan sa akin e

Me:
Anu bug. Di noh 😉

HIM:
biyahe k n?

Me:
Di pa. Our clients decided to leave at 2 pm instead of 4, so sasabay na ako. I’ll be picked up sa Valenzuela City hall then be brought to RW.

I’m just lounging around sa room. I’m all packed na eh.

HIM:
Nice.. that’s good..

1:16 pm
Me:
Ayaw ko kasi na nagmamadali na last minute nagrempake. So usually I’m packed the night before. I’m that OC

HIM:
i find that cool..

Me:
Kahit sa (previous company’s name undisclosed) pa naman ako, I was OC na. And it helps naman talaga – kaya lang sometimes I border on paranoia, especially before session.

HIM:
but u functioned well

Me:
Well, I’ve learned how to deal with it – and I don’t expect people to be like me, so hindi ako nafufrustrate.

HIM:
ain’t that the key to it darlin’? cool..

Me:
And yet so many people haven’t figured it out yet :p

HIM:
it’s difficult to figure out baby

Me:
No it’s not ;p

1:31 pm
HIM:
i hope so..

Me:
:p

HIM:
why’d u show me that video baby?

Me:
Cause I really like it… And I guess I just wanted to share it with you.

HIM:
thank you for sharing it with me.. =D

Me:
You’re welcome baby 🙂

HIM:
i thought i said ‘sharing it to me’ so i checked, and i’m glad i got it right.. hehe

Me:
Grammar conscious?

HIM:
no.. ’cause of you’ conscious..

Me:
Whaaat? 🙂

HIM:
why baby? u make me wanna be good

Me:
I’m glad 🙂

HIM:
i wanna see u baby..

Me:
Soon, sweetheart

1:50 pm
HIM:
it’s almost 2 baby.. u’r on ur way..

Me:
I know! I’m in the bus na, waiting. So excited to go home.

HIM:
i can imagine.. =D

Me:
Haha… Really now. Whatcha doin baby?

HIM:
just layin down baby.. imaginin ur face

Me:
Hmm.. 🙂

2:02 pm
Me:
I wish I was with you, baby..

HIM:
and if?

Me:
I’d just want your arms around me

HIM:
i’d like that.. that will be more than comfortable..

Me:
🙂

6:29 pm
Me:
Hi Baby! We just left the second stop over. 2 hours to go… Ang sakit na ng likod ko 😥

HIM:
aww baby.. how can u party like that later?

Me:
Asus! I wouldn’t know ho to party to save my life. Nakatulog ka na ba?

HIM:
yep.. im going to a concert dedicated to one agent of ours who just died of the big c

Me:
Oh my god. Cancer? Really?

Parang hanggang 2 katext pa kita ah. Wala ka nanamang tulog.

HIM:
it’s ok baby.. wala naman akong mahalagang pupuntahan.. i can just bum after..

Me:
Where’s the concert being held?

6:49 pm
HIM:
sa malapit sa PICC.. di ko alam puntahan e.. hehe.. it’s not a concert concert… it’s a collaboration of bands that we know sa isang bar doon

Me:
Ahhhh (hindi ko rin alam ang place)… Was the agent still young?

HIM:
no hun.. 40plus na siya..

Me:
But still… 40 isn’t so old… I mean, you’ll be 40 in a couple of years, right? ;p

7:00 pm
HIM:
yeah hun.. about 7yrs.. i will still be partying around that time.. playing table tennis.. dancing.. hehe

Me:
Lol!

HIM:
haha.. why?

Me:
Anung why?

HIM:
tinatawanan mo ako e.. =p

Me:
Haha… Images in my head… Partying at 40 (which isn’t really so strange considering my family still believes in partying at 60)

HIM:
see? we’v known each other for 7 yrs.. what do u want think after 7more?

Me:
7 years na ba?

HIM:
on june baby it would have been

Me:
I can’t believe you remember that!

HIM:
of course baby..

Me:
And who would have thought after 7 years I would be texting you like this?

7:15 pm
HIM:
i would.. but ive been wrong for more than 6yrs

Me:
Sabi ko nga eh 🙂 Well, better late than never..

HIM:
why is it late baby?

Me:
Okay, wrong saying :p

I do remember the first time I met you, y’know

HIM:
oh yeah.. what do you remember abt it?

Me:
You weren’t supposed to be part of my class, so I had no idea why you were there.

And I was writing your names on the whiteboard and I asked if yours was spelled with a c or a ch. And you said, “k, double f”. I seriously wanted to throw an eraser at your head. Lol.

HIM:
haha.. baket?

Me:
Dude, the dating lang. Sooo… Presko. I can’t describe it any other way. Lol.

7:32 pm
HIM:
baby i dunno if u already know that i dont mean to act like that

Me:
Baby, I know that. But I have to admit it happened within the last three days or so.

HIM:
again because i know i laugh at those kinds of ‘kapreskohan’ because it’s abnoxious.. and i was trying to be abnoxious.. not presko!

Me:
Abnoxious?

HIM:
yeah.. i see exactly why u want to throw erasers to those kinds of peeps.. but i do it to make fun of those kinds of peeps.. unfortunately i think i do it because im those kinds of peeps

Me:
So you admit that your obnoxious?

HIM:
trying to make fun of myself by being it.. yeah

Me:
Okay… 🙂

HIM:
maybe it’s me being weird thinking that people will understand.. and i never learn that they don’t

7:46 pm
Me:
They do. It just takes a little time.

Me:
Sorry 😦

HIM:
i always made fun of cocky pricks babe.. i dont get offended by them..

HIM:
nyerkz.. baket?

Me:
I wasn’t sure if I crossed a line or not

HIM:
u did not baby.. people always saw me that way, but only very few get to really understand.. ung mga malas na nakaka’malas’.. hehe

Me:
Sabi ko nga. For what it’s worth, baby, you are worth getting to know.

HIM:
haha.. weh.. di ako sanay w those coming from u.. =D

Me:
Haha… Bakit naman?

HIM:
lagi mo kaya akong inaapi.. haha..

Me:
So hindi ka sanay when I’m nice?

HIM:
yep.. not in a bad way.. =D

Me:
Hahaha… I’m really not nice, baby. But I am honest.

HIM:
good enough..

8:00 pm
Me:
🙂

Me:
You on your way to the concert na?

HIM:
nakakatamad magshower.. nakahiga lang ako..

Me:
Ahahaha… What time
Are you supposed to be there ba?

HIM:
sabi nila 7.. but i doubt it.. i planned 9.. baka 10nalang..

Me:
Tamad 🙂

HIM:
oh yeah.. proud of it..

Me:
Good for you! :p

HIM:
r we gonna meet tomorrow?

Me:
Sige. Evening. Decide where we’re going ha.

HIM:
not if u cant baby

Me:
What?

HIM:
baka naman kasi wala ka talagang time.. sabi mo kasi u’r always running out of time in a lot of ways

Me:
I am. And that’s a long story. But tomorrow’s good. Unless you don’t want to.

8:15 am
HIM:
i want to baby.. how much time will u have for us?

Me:
Tomorrow?

HIM:
yeah baby..

Me:
A little after midnight

HIM:
from what tym baby?

Me:
Mid to late afternoon?

HIM:
that’s half a day..

Me:
Too much?

HIM:
i like it baby.. kung pede nga lang buong weekend e.. kaya lang wala naman tayong bahay..

Me:
Haha… Oo nga

8:31 pm
HIM:
san kita susunduin?

Me:
Are you commuting?

HIM:
not sure yet.. im not commuting tonight.. but im thinking they might need the car tomorrow..

Me:
If you don’t have a car, I cam meet you nalang somewhere. Where’s convenient for you? Makakadating naman ako as far as makati without getting lost :p

HIM:
ok then.. what do u wanna do in 12hrs?

Me:
You decide.

HIM:
baby, im the guy.. it’s not about me.. ok.. i’ll change the question.. how do u wanna spend ur day? masipag ka ba? tamad ka ba? nerd ka ba? talker ka ba?

8:46 pm
Me:
Okay… I want to spend the day hanging out… No, I’m not very masipag, but I don’t mind walking… I am a talker and I’m a geek.

HIM:
im not good at dates.. but i’ll think about where to go.. =D

Me:
Oh, and I don’t like people, so I can’t stand crowded places for a long time.

HIM:
i dont like people too.. i only like you..

Me:
Very kewl.

I hate deciding where to go – unless there’s somewhere I really want to go to or something I really want to do – and I’ve been deciding for so many years and I don’t want to do that tomorrow.

HIM:
what is that?

Me:
What?

HIM:
oh gotcha.. u wanna decide.. alright..

HIM:
i’ll lead the way then

Me:
Very kewl 🙂

HIM:
u wanna watch a movie?

Me:
Sure 🙂 What’s showing ba?

HIM:
avengers.. gusto sana kitang yayain dun after 2 weeks.. like i said, i hate crowd.. and for sure, booked na rin ang seats today..

Me:
We can watch it when it’s not so popular anymore.

HIM:
or we can watch it here sa bahay.. haha.. hula ko kasi bitin lang un dahil sa dami ng characters, di naman kayang i highlight silang lahat sa short movie.. sorry ang gulo ko naman kausap.. di tlg ako magaling sa dates e

9:07 pm
Me:
Haha… It’s okay, baby. I’m sure we’ll have a good time.

Gusto ko namang mapanuod ang Avengers sa theatre noh. Willing to wait naman ako.

HIM:
ok.. prolly other movies tomorrow, or maybe something else to do..

Me:
Sige. Di na ako updated sa films.

HIM:
nakakahiya man, my best idea about spending time is doing it at home.. no crowd.. u can talk.. and since im lazy, u can relax.. see a movie.. eat whaever u want.. kaya lang crowded dito tomorrow e.. coffee house is serene.. but u dont wanna sit there for 12 hrs.. =D

HIM:
uy may showing.. the lucky one.. let’s do that.. =D

Me:
I can sit in a place for about 4 to 5 hours before needing to walk around, as long as the conversation’s good.

Oh yeah. That’s supposed to be good. AND if I start crying, you are not allowed to make fun of me. :p

HIM:
i know that baby.. i’ll hold you..

Me:
I’d like that 🙂

HIM:
baby.. If u remember, i got ADHD.. i cant stay in a coffee house as long as u can.. id definitely bring the good conversation some place else after a while..

Me:
Hahaha… That’s fine – we’ll do the venue hopping thing

Me:
Hey baby, I’m in Resorts World na. Are you still going to your concert thing?

9:30 pm
HIM:
im doubting it..

HIM:
sige na baby i wont disturb u.. kiss*

Me:
Haha… It’s okay baby… Text ka lang if you want

HIM:
it’s alright baby.. have fun.. u with she and peehpoe right?

Me:
Yup 🙂 I just gotta freshen up and get money. And have dinner.

You still just in bed?

HIM:
yep

Me:
Hindi ka ba hahanapin dun sa concert thing?

HIM:
im not sure.. i asked my TMs.. parang wala naman sakanila pupunta.. i will just get bored..

9:45 pm
Me:
Rest nalang, baby. Magbaei ka nalang muna ng tulog

HIM:
id rather drive to you, kiss you, then drive back home

Me:
You realize that I can’t stop smiling right now, right?

HIM:
not really.. but i realize how good it might be to kiss you while u smile..

Me:
🙂

HIM:
i really wanna

Me:
Maybe tomorrow you’ll find out. MAYBE. :p

HIM:
maybe..

Me:
Ayaw mo?

HIM:
gusto kaya..

Me:
Haha…

HIM:
kaw kaya jan may ayaw

10:01 pm
Me:
Haha… Sabi ko maybe 🙂

HIM:
o e di ayaw..

Me:
Ewan ko sayo :p

HIM:
u said u’r just honest..

Me:
I am. Kaya nga sabi ko maybe. Meaning it’s possible.

HIM:
it’s possible for u to wanna kiss?

Me:
Kiss you?

HIM:
in effect, yes, me

Me:
And yes, it’s possible

10:19 pm
HIM:
that thought alone is nice..

Me:
🙂 Whatcha doin?

10:31 pm
HIM:
Chatting in FB baby.. u?

Me:
About to eat palang

HIM:
u w ur friends now?

Me:
Yup 🙂

HIM:
alright then

Me:
Enjoy your night, baby. And try to get some rest, okay?

HIM:
have fun.. =D

11:10 pm
Me:
I’m so sleepy naaaaa…

HIM:
wat tym nio balak matulog?

Me:
Naku, hindi ko alam…

HIM:
wat r u guys doing?

Me:
Hanging out lang. Peehpoe’s still eating.

11:32 pm
HIM:
magca-casino ba kayo?

Me:
Nope. Tambay lang talaga ‘to. Ready na nga ang biogesic ko eh.

11:51 pm
HIM:
san kayo nakatambay?

Me:
Mr. Kurusawa in Resorts World

*          *          *

I’m starting to realize that different days will make make me feel different things. Yesterday’s entry made me feel sad. This one made me feel happy. One thing, however, that remained the same is that there are times when I find myself still missing you. And, once again, I’m reminded of why I need to remember.

There was a time, old man, when you didn’t have to tell me how much you wanted to be with me because I could feel it with every message you sent.

But these are just words. And although there was a time when your words meant something to me… Now it means nothing.

And (original name stricken out), honey, this and the thousand paper cuts are for you too.  You added me in (social network undisclosed).  Did you know about me?  Because you should definitely know about this.

Karma’s a bitch. Unfortunately for the two of you, so am I.



Ciao Bella!

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50 in ’12: V is for Vengeance – On the Long Road to Baguio, Day 3

The Road that Could Have Been

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April 26, 2007

3:22 am
Me:
Hi 🙂

HIM:
hi dear =D

Me:
Syempre nakatulog nalang ako kanina.

Busy?

HIM:
not really.. how are you?

Me:
Sleepy. Cold. :p

HIM:
u can sleep in d vehicle dear.. i wont disturb u.. =D

Me:
It’s fine 🙂 I got my 4 hours naman. And if I stop replying, that usually means nawalan na ulit ako ng malay. Lol.

HIM:
yep.. mukhang sanay naman tayo sa isat isa na bgla nalang nawawalan ng malay ang ka text..

HIM:
are u preparing now?

Me:
Ay, sobrang dalas na ba? Hehe… Sorry 🙂

Me:
Done na. I’m just waiting for the car to pick me up. Sana lang hindi sila mawala

HIM:
no worries dear

Me:
🙂

Me:
My ride’s here na. Whatcha doin?

HIM:
nakaupo lang staring at my laptop.. gusto ko nang umuwi..

Me:
Haha… Bakit naman?

HIM:
im so sleepy.. kakatamad..

4:16 am
Me:
Hahaha… Weren’t you able to sleep well kanina?

HIM:
yep.. 3 hours lang.. haay..

Me:
Awww… Wawa ka naman 🙂

4:34 am
Me:
Any moment now, magsasalita nalang yung laptop mo. Lol

4:51 am
HIM:
hi.. Sorry.. i got int an emergency meeting w some clients.. Im still in it now pero petiks na ang usapan.. Hehe

Me:
Hoi, baka mapagalitan ka jan ha. But I’m glad you texted 🙂

HIM:
pag di ako nag text ibig sabihin napagalitan na ako.. hahaha.. it’s a concall.. =D

5:05 am
Me:
Oh noh! Pag napagalitan ka, I’ll make it up to you nalang. Hehe…

5:15 am
HIM:
hmmm.. sana mapagalitan ako.. pero depende.. haha..

Me:
Hahaha… Natawa naman ako bigla dito sa bus!

HIM:
sshh.. baka mapagalitan ako ako pa babawi sayo.. tana na yung ako nalaang ang mapagalitan.. hehe

Me:
Lol. Okay lang din yun. Bawi nalang tayo to each other :p Haha…

HIM:
hmmm.. ok yan.. hooow?

Me:
Hahaha… I dunno 🙂 You tell me.

HIM:
saka na.. hindi pa naman tayo napapagalitan eh.. kung gusto mo pagalitan mo nalang ako para may dahilan para bumawi.. =p

5:33 am
Me:
Ahaha… Wag mong antayin. Baka magkatotoo pang mapagalitan ka. Meeting ka pa din?

HIM:
yep.. di pa tapos.. sige na nga.. takot ko lang.. =(

Me:
At bakit may sad face?

HIM:
eh tinatakot mo naman ako eh.. (tsaka wala nang bawi.. puro pagalit nalang.. hehe)

Me:
Ahahaha… Hindi kita tinatakot ha. E baka mamaya anjan si pao and you’re not paying attention. To him. Lol.

7:17 am
Me:
Hi 🙂

HIM:
hi dear..

Me:
Still in the office?

7:30 am
HIM:
year dear.. meeting up w my TMs.. how’s the trip so far? brkfasted yet?

Me:
Breakfasted? 🙂 we’re in tarlac na. Stop over lang.

Oops… Sorry to bother. Meet with your TMs first. Text me nalang later.

8:18 am
HIM:
hi hun? =D

Me:
May question mark?

HIM:
haha.. sorry.. hi hun.. im on d road home now.. nakatulong ka na ba?

Me:
I was able to sleep kanina before we reached the stop over. Kaaalis namin ulit.

How were your meetings? Did you pay attention? Lol.

HIM:
not in a lot as always.. hehe.. di ka ba inaantok ngaun? malapit na kayo sa baguio i suppose

8:37 am
Me:
We’re in a bus stop – the first one going to baguio (in other words, I have no idea where we are). Lol.

I’m not too sleepy… But if I stop replying… Well, you na 🙂 Hindi ka ba matutulog sa byahe?

HIM:
baka makatulog din ako.. but i like texting you..

Me:
🙂

Me:
Uy, nakatulog na!

HIM:
yeah when i get off the buss in edsa and get to a van to our place in cavite

Me:
Oh. Okay, now I get it. Hehe… How long does the van ride take?

HIM:
an hour pag swerte.. =D

Me:
Waw… Tyaga mo din ha

HIM:
yep.. my mom wouldnt want me to leave my sister.. kaya medyo long shot.. but i really want my place in makati..

Me:
Can’t your sister live with you in Makati?

Ako naman I don’t want to live in Makati :p

HIM:
house niya kasi ung nasa cavite.. she had that build for herself.. san mo gusto tumira?

Me:
I actually want to stay in either the pasig or manda area. But if I get really desperate, I’ll to makati in a heartbeat just to get out.

9:00 am
HIM:
but u work in makati..

Me:
Yup. But I like the trip eh 🙂 although admittendly, it’s hassle kasi I bring 2 bags every day.

HIM:
yeah and u should mind ur back hun

Me:
I know. E mas hassle naman when I get back to Manila – I have 3 bags, plus pasalubong, assuming I get to buy. And I’m commuting back – hindi na ako sasabay sa client.

HIM:
pano yan? teka before the condo san ka nakatira?

Me:
My aunt and I used to rent an apartment in Ecology Village – near don bosco. Before that I used to live in Wack-Wack (and Binondo).

Kaya yan. I’m going straight to Resorts World after arriving eh. So sa may Pasay terminal ako bababa. Wag lang ako mawala dun, oks na.

HIM:
bakit ka didiretso sa resorts world?

9:16 am
Me:
I’m meeting Sheryll 🙂

HIM:
oh.. cool.. =D

Me:
Hahaha… Magkakabit ang bituka namin these days eh.

HIM:
tama lang un.. she is a sensible friend especially now.. =D

Me:
Haha… I know. She’s been through 4 exes already and we’ve been friends for so long na din.

HIM:
that’s really admirable

Me:
Maiba lang… So how’s the whole OM thing working out for you?

HIM:
i like it but it’s tough.. it’s just a daily thing for me.. besides, work is work no matter what u do..

Me:
But are you happy?

HIM:
i am.. i got what i need to support other more impt things in my life..

Me:
That’s good 🙂

HIM:
pareho tayong happy.. =D

Me:
Haha… That’s true 🙂

HIM:
nakakain ka ba kanina sa stopover?

9:30 am
Me:
Yup. The client made us eat. Have you eaten?

HIM:
not yet.. kanina pa ako sa ofc gutom but i just wanna get home..

Me:
You should have picked something up along the way. Para at least you’re munching on something.

HIM:
diyahe naman sa kasama ko sa sasakyan.. hehe.. im good.. we’re texting..

Me:
Haha… Hindi naman sinabing kumain ka ng kanin noh. Lol.

I’m glad you don’t see the whole texting this as unedning pangungulit on my part.

HIM:
i like talking.. lucky me i got you texting me.. not just anyone can be satisfactory..

Me:
Haha… Lucky you, talaga? :p

9:45 am
HIM:
is there any other way around it?

Me:
Hmm… 🙂

HIM:
why hun?

Me:
Nothing 🙂

HIM:
bored? =D

Me:
No… I like that we’re texting

HIM:
really? =D

Me:
Yes 🙂

HIM:
good..

Me:
Really?

HIM:
haha.. really hun.. i just got home.. im eating now.. come here join me..

10:03 am
Me:
I would if I could, sweetie. Eat lang so you could rest na

HIM:
you would? really?

Me:
Bakit naman parang hindi kapani-paniwala?

HIM:
yeah.. ganun nga..

Me:
Any bug. Bakit naman?

HIM:
i dunno hun.. i just do not think it would happen.. maybe unless if it did..

Me:
Haha.. Why not?

HIM:
simple.. because it has not happened yet..

10:15 am
Me:
Sabi ko nga eh :p

HIM:
it will be fun if we did that

Me:
Eat?

HIM:
yeah..

Me:
One day, then

HIM:
alright..

Me:
Sleepy now?

HIM:
not yet hunnie.. im watching tv.. i wanna be up more for you

Me:
What are you watching? I don’t even know what shows are still on nowadays. I usually just download everything eh.

HIM:
im reqtching something i watched in d movies.. ghost protocol..

10:30 am
Me:
That was such a good movie!

HIM:
oh yeah!

Me:
That’s something ha, considering that asides from the second movie, I didn’t really like the MI films.

HIM:
i like the MI films.. but yeah some aren’t that good.. i also like cruise’s ‘the last samurai’

Me:
I liked that. I cried buckets over that. But then again, I’m really iyakin, so I cry over everything. Lol.

HIM:
i gotta see that some time.. =D

Me:
Ahaha… You want to see me cry?

HIM:
over a movie yeah

Me:
Haha… At least na-qualify ang pag-iyak ko. Lol. If you do see that, you are so not allowed to make fun of me!

10:48 am
HIM:
i wont definitely make fun of you.. but i will hold you.. if im allowed to..

Me:
Promise?

HIM:
promise..

Me:
Hmm… 🙂

HIM:
u like that? i gotta gazillion dvds here for you to choose

11:08 am
Me:
I think I’d like that 🙂

HIM:
that’s good hunnie.. u will like it here..

Me:
Really now?

HIM:
haha.. i think so..

Me:
Haha.. What makes you think I’d like it there?

HIM:
cuz i will do everything to make it happen.. =D

Me:
Those are big words to live up to, you know.

HIM:
i know right.. mukhang napasubo nga ako eh.. but i think i have an ace up my sleeve..

Me:
And that would be what?

HIM:
u wont get it when u get it but i’ll tell u when u get it.. no big deal actually.. =D

Me:
Omg! So low eq when it comes to things like these! Grrr…

HIM:
don’t worry it out.. we all have our moments.. kiss* =D

Me:
kiss* -> ????

HIM:
well u said so.. low EQ indeed! hehehe

Me:
That’s your ace?

HIM:
hahaha.. nyerkz.. no hun! are u telling me that u think im telling u that u will have fun here because of a kiss*? i told u, i will tell u when u get it cuz u wont get it when u do.. sus!

Me:
Haller. Labo kaya noh! Lol! So you’re not going to tell me talaga? (kulit ko noh?)

HIM:
i’ll tell you.. when u get it! kulit mo

11:45 am
Me:
Ahahaha… Fine! At matagal na akong makulit noh! Lol

HIM:
di halata.. u are always poised, and beautiful..

Me:
Juice ko! I suddenly feel like I have to live up to your perception of me. :p

HIM:
no pressure on that hun.. u already are..

Me:
You’re very sweet, you know that?

HIM:
really?.. =D

12:05 pm
Me:
Yes, you are 🙂

12:25 pm
HIM:
u make it come out naturally..

Me:
🙂 What time do you usually get up for work?

HIM:
i wake up 5.. prepare for 1.t o 2 hrs, then travel.. why hunnie?

Me:
Don’t you have to sleep now?

HIM:
im on bed now hun.. enjoy ur day.. kiss*

Me:
Sleep well, Kris 🙂 Have good dreams..

HIM:
if u’r in them i wud.. c”,)

Me:
🙂

5:20 pm
Me:
Bangon na… Matagal ka pa maligo :))

5:45 pm
HIM:
hi hun.. woke up late.. why are you stressed?

Me:
Work lang – we got yo baguio later than expected so nagcram kami prepping (which I HATE). And I’m tired. And I have a fever. And we have to go out pa tonight.

Go take a bath na.

6:23 pm
HIM:
kawawa ka naman.. wat r u doing now? istorbo na ba ako?

6:55 pm
Me:
Hi 🙂 sorry, katatapos ko lang magfacilitate. Papasok ka na?

HIM:
nagbibihis pa po.. break?

Me:
Done na. 3 hours lang ako today. Bukas 10 hours ako.

HIM:
huwaaaat! grabe naman

7:15 pm
Me:
Ganun talaga kami eh

HIM:
i hope i get to observe u one day =p

Me:
Haha… Hindi mo pa ba aki nakikitang magtrain?

HIM:
being in ur class is different than observing

Me:
Ano ba kita dati? Participant?

HIM:
yep! tech training sa PB tsaka trainee sa ALTD

Me:
Oh right! Didn’t you do the little bow thing as your presentation?

Was I a good trainer?

7:30 pm
HIM:
yeah.. u remembered it.. you are.. poise, beauty and expert information is a very good combination for learners.. very ALTD..

Me:
Haha… Dude, if you think I was good then, I’m so much better now. Modesty assumed nalang talaga.

And I’ve grown up, I think, since I joined (company name not disclosed).

HIM:
ikr.. that’s why i’d like it if i cud observe u

Me:
Hahaha… Sana.

HIM:
what r u doin now dear?

Me:
Waiting for the shuttle to us back to the manor. Iwan lang namin stuff namin then we’re heading to sm baguio.

HIM:
so that’s ur night out? SM?

8:01 pm
Me:
Well, it’s not a night out, night out. We’re buying stuff for tomorrow’s session. And then Alvin is meeting us somewhere.

HIM:
oh.. i’ll just pretend i know who alvin is.. haha

8:15 pm
Me:
Oh, sorry. Alvin was one of my participants from one of my classes from last year.

HIM:
u must be tired by now..

Me:
Swaying on my feet 😦

HIM:
oh poor hun.. don’t tell me u’r carrying ur bags around..

8:30 pm
Me:
No naman. We left out stuff at the front desk. Hindi pa kaya ako nakakapagcheck in sa hotel.

HIM:
aww.. why dont u give time for urself a bit and just meetup w them?

Me:
I’m in this awesome coffeeshop in some little corner of baguio. So cool!

Office ka na?

HIM:
yep.. the cab is pulling over.. what’s d name of the place?

Me:
KaffeeKlatsch. Some artsy fartsy coffee house. So I so belong. :p

HIM:
havent been there hun.. good coffee?

8:47 pm
Me:
Haven’t ordered yet. Lol. Ako nalang nga inaantay.

HIM:
bkt d k p muna umuwi sa hotel to freshen up then just catch up w them? =)

Me:
Because I might get lost and you’ll never see me again. Lol.

HIM:
hunnie.. kaw tlg.. u hav phone and there’s a lot of cabs there..

9:01 pm
Me:
At saan ako dadalhin ng cab? Sige nga :p

HIM:
hahaha.. san ba pupunta group mo? di ba sa SM.. im sure after shower they’re still there..

Me:
Hahaha… Hindi naman kasama ang participants namin. Tulog na yung mga yun… (statement undisclosed). 3 lang kami dito.

HIM:
im sure u guys can meet up some place.. oh well.. i just imagine the pain of going around without checking in yet

Me:
I know, right? May acoustic band na tumutugtog. And to be fair listening to them isn’t sila cruel and unusual punishment. Lol!

9:15 pm
HIM:
ngehehe.. kasama mo na ba sila?

Me:
Yup. Kasi we had to buy stuff for training. E ako ang naglalabas ng pera. Wala na kaya akong pamasahe pauwi. Hehe

HIM:
weh.. hahaha.. abono? ano ba yan.. magkano ba kailangan mo? hahahaha

Me:
Weh. Papautangin mo ko.

HIM:
oo ba..

Me:
Haha… Ayaw 🙂

HIM:
kaw bahala.. nahihiya ka pa.. dati naman pinautang mo rin ako..

Me:
Talaga? Binayaran mo ba yun?

HIM:
oo naman noh.. hahaha..

Me:
Hahaha… Malay ko ba. Lol.

HIM:
excuse me naman! hehehe

Me:
You’re excused! Lol!

HIM:
haaay.. ako nanaman ang pinagti-trip-an mo.. sige lang.. =p

Me:
Hanap nalang ako ng ibang pagtitripan?

HIM:
sabi ko sige lang di ba?

9:31 pm
Me:
Ahahaha 🙂

HIM:
di makaintindi hun? hehehe

Me:
:p

HIM:
u enjoying ur night?

Me:
Okay lang 🙂 My kind of place eh.

HIM:
that’s good.. =D

Me:
How’s the office naman? Not a busy night?

HIM:
hopefully not a busy one.. apart from the scheduled meetings.. sana walang issue to disturb..

9:45 pm
Me:
Goodluck naman. Ops ka pa man din. kelan ba naman nawalan ng problema yun?

HIM:
minsan nawawalan naman.. =D

10:02 pm
Me:
Sana nung AM pa ako naranasan ko yun 😦

HIM:
i know right.. we had good time back then..

Me:
When Booie was my manager, I was on top of the world. Nung naging AM asko ng sbrc, gabi-gabi iniiyakan ko ang sla at absenteeism.

10:20 pm
HIM:
grabe kasi dati.. daming pasaway, and the TMs didnt have an idea how to handle it..

Me:
And I was a bad AM

HIM:
that’s not true hun.. what happened with the changes took us all by surprise..

Me:
Juice ko – ang daming changes sa last two years ko sa sykes, witht he non-confirmation and then the redundiation. May left over bitterness pa ako. Lol!

HIM:
ganun ba? i think that’s normal and u simply have to let urself go through the process

10:30 pm
Me:
Hahaha… Oi, at least I can laugh about it now noh. There was a time na sinumpa ko talaga ang (company name undisclosed). The height of my bitterness yun. Lol

HIM:
good to know that u can laugh about it now.. no more hang ups anymore?

Me:
No na 🙂 Life is too short for wallowing in things that didn’t work out.

HIM:
ayuz! manuti naman!

Me:
Lol

HIM:
it will be nice if we get to talk about the good times when we meet

Me:
We’ll get to do that one day. At lalabas talaga ang pagiging laitera ko. Ganyan ako when waking down memory lane eh.

10:56 pm
HIM:
hahaha.. im sure i will enjoy that..

Me:
Lol! Tapos mapupunta sayo ang panlalait ko.

HIM:
ok lang..

Me:
Weh

HIM:
ayaw mo maniwala?

Me:
At kung ayaw ko nga?

HIM:
bakit naman ayaw mong maniwala?

Me:
Wala lang 🙂

HIM:
haha.. u’r just going to see for urself then..

Me:
Lol. Sabi ko nga eh. Shet, antok na ako. May session planning pa kami pagbalik sa hotel.

HIM:
ha? ano ba yan.. kape kape

Me:
Nakapagkape na nga eh.. Balik na kami sa hotel in a while.

HIM:
text me anytime u want hun

Me:
Eh… Mamaya istorbo na ako

11:18 pm
HIM:
ok lang yun hun.. mamaya tulog ka na.. hehe

Me:
Lol. Hindi pa pwede! Gagawa pa kami ng session plan 😥

HIM:
aww hun.. gano katagal yan?

Me:
Couple of hours, probably… Hirap lang kasi kulang kami – paakyat palang yung isabg trainer namin.

11:39 pm
HIM:
tapos 10hrs ka pa bukas.. haay.. anyway.. txt hun if u like.. hindi ka istorbo.. istorbo tong work ko sa text e.. haha

Me:
Hahahaha… Oh yey! I’m in out hotel room na. Kaya lang bawal talaga tong ginagawa namin. Lol

HIM:
anu un?

Me:
(explanation of company policy undisclosed)

HIM:
nyerkz.. are u comfortable?

Me:
For tonight? Yup. Marvin and I have known each other naman for so long na. Pero bukas, I really don’t want to room with a participant.

HIM:
i think roomies are just fine.. =D

Me:
Consultant roomies are fine. (next statement undisclosed). I don’t like people nga eh.

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Reading this again and writing it down made me… sad.

You never got to see me cry, old man. You didn’t then – not over books, over tv shows or over movies – and now you never will.  Not even over you.



Ciao Bella!

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49 in ’12: V is for Vengeance – Getting to Know You, Day 2

I guess every conversation begins will a little bit of reminiscing… And then you start sharing little details about yourself… And before you know it, almost 12 hours of texting have passed. And let me tell you… transcribing nearly 12 hours worth of SMS messages is not easy.

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April 25, 2012

1:33 am
Me:
Ayan, pauwi na ako

2:23 am
HIM:
just read ur msg.. goodnight.. =D

8:11 am
Me:
Hey 🙂 Hindi na talaga ako nakapagreply kagabi at nawalan nalang ata sko ng malay when I got to the condo. Lol

8:43 am
HIM:
good morning.. =D

Me:
Morning, Kris 🙂 Home na?

HIM:
not yet.. im attending an investment offer in BDO.. im w She and other employees.. =D Still at home?

Me:
Oooops! Istorbo ba?

I just left the condo. I’ll be so sabog today! Lol

HIM:
oh well puyat ka na uminom ka pa when u dont really drink and u have not done it in a long while.. sabog ka nga.. =D

9:17 am
Me:
Lol. This is actually late for me going to the office – I usually go to work at 6:30 or 7.

And it was a half a bottle of beer! I really can’t hold my liqour eh.

HIM:
ayy.. late ka na.. matipid ka pala kainuman.. haha

Me:
Actually, wala akong kwentang kainuman.

Wala naman kaming time card sa office eh. Work starts at 8:30, but I’m usually there by 7:30. Earlier if I meet someone for breakfast or coffee.

HIM:
im usually on d way home at 730.. nakainuman naman kita before (by extension) hindi naman masyadong walang kuwenta.. hehe

Me:
When was that??? I don’t remember that at all

9:33 am
HIM:
PB outings

Me:
Really? Hehehe… I didn’t even think I went to that many outings. I’m not exactly a people person.

HIM:
hindi halata.. we had officer’s hotel night when u were my AM, we also had batangas…

Me:
Oh. Batangas. That I remember.

HIM:
and bulacan

Me:
Wait, I’m getting all confused now. Where was the one when I asked you to sing?

HIM:
in batangas and in the hotel.. the concert thing for the agents where ka roger won was in bulacan

Me:
Hmmm… Ang naaalala ko talaga ay batangas. Siguro naman you’re on your way home na.

HIM:
yep i am.. yep batangas.. that was dandy’s teambldg.. i was in d room together w ur bf, we were talking while u guys were texting..

Me:
We weren’t together then. Not yet, at least.

And that wasn’t why I remembered Batangas. Lol

HIM:
ngehehe.. ok..

10:50 am
Me:
Lol. I have other memories of that night – particularly when I was singing Run to You while being videod.

How long does it take you to get home? Layo mo na!

HIM:
i was the one who asked u to sing that..
1.5 hrs travel home..
almost there.. =D

Me:
You were? 🙂 and I asked you to sing If You’re Not the One.

HIM:
you did? i didnt remember that detail..

Me:
I always ask you to that

HIM:
i guess that makes sense.. no one else asks me to sing that

Me:
I really like that song kasi. And, so far, you’re the only one who does it justice.

11:05 am
HIM:
not sure abt being still able to.. hehe..

Me:
sayang naman :p

HIM:
home now.. watcha doin?

11:30 am
HIM:
going to bed now.. have fun!

11:58 am
Me:
Homaygay… I’m so sorry… Super tagal ko magreply! I was talking to my boss – and that usually lasts for an hour (or two).

I’m off to edsa shang to observe another facilitator. Sleep well, Kris 🙂 Have good dreams.

6:14 pm
(after chatting in fb)
Me:
Hey 🙂 Sorry I had to shut down real quick. Saw you typing something pa :p

HIM:
that’s fine.. it’s not as if u’ll lose the msg.. =D
Txt u later

Me:
Lol. Malay mo mabura. Lol!

Go prep for work na.

7:03 pm
HIM:
how r u?

Me:
Eto, pumipila sa cab queue. On your way to work na?

HIM:
yep.. di ba delikado mag text while in queue

Me:
Sana hindi. Lol. E ang haba kaya ng pila. I’m so bored noh!

HIM:
that sucks.. marunong ka bang mang api ng ibang tao sa paligid mo even alone?

Me:
Of course! It’s a goddess-given talent, along with singing, writing and being sarcastic 🙂

I just don’t day it out loud lest people start looking at me funny.

HIM:
good.. that can help the boredom.. =D

Me:
Lol. I know, right?

HIM:
malamng bulungan tayo nang bulungan if i were there.. har har har

7:15 pm
Me:
Lol. Fun! 🙂 unless I whisper something in your ear and accidentally use my trainer voice.

HIM:
nyahaha.. ok lang basta malayo yung subject.. =p

Me:
Hay naku. Kahit gaano pa sya kalayo, kaya syang abutin ng trainer voice ko. Plus I laugh really loud.

Yay! Nakasakay na ako.

HIM:
nice.. diretso bahay ka na? i really wish u wud not wisper in my ear using a trainer voice.. laughing out loud is fun though.. hehehe

Me:
Haha.. I’m going straight to the condo. I need to pack my stuff for tomorrow. I leave at 3:30 eh.

HIM:
oh early in bed tonight then.. dont miss your dinner..

Me:
I wish lang I can sleep agad.. I don’t sleep very well eh.

And I don’t eat dinner :p Not usually, anyway.

HIM:
u can sleep i d trip then.. u have a ride?

Me:
We’re riding with the client going up. Then going down, uwi na kami on out own.

HIM:
hope it’s not too crowded then.. i never tried driving up to baguio.. mahirap yata un.. bus lang lagi when i go there, and i take the middle seats para least humps..

7:31 pm
Me:
I think we’re taking a bus too. I’ve ridden a car up to baguio – but that was waaaaa back when I was younger. We got into an accident and that’s how I hurt my back.

HIM:
until now?

Me:
My back? Yup… Kaya madaling sumakit ang lower back ko.

HIM:
some limitations in massages when u’r in a SPA too?

Me:
As long as the massage isn’t too hard, it’s okay.

Those are the kinds of things people don’t usually know na about me.

HIM:
thanks for being one of the few.. =D

Me:
Haha… It’s nothing. I’m an open book naman eh. People just have to figure out which questions to ask.

HIM:
i should congratulate myself then.. improving! haha

Me:
Hahaha… Little talks!

HIM:
right! im actually glad abt that.. haha

7:45 pm
Me:
Haha.. It’ll get easier. It’s cones naturally to some people, but it can be learned.

HIM:
i have confidence issue that’s why i didn’t get used to these things.. but i’m learning..

Me:
I’m sorry… YOU have confidence issues???

HIM:
i know a lot of people may be surprised but i think it comes out obviously to some peeps.. hindi ba talaga halata? =(

Me:
Hindi. And you overcompensate, I think and it doesn’t come out well. Tell me if I’m being too blunt ha. I’m trying to work on that.

HIM:
that’s fine.. im glad if i can talk about anything w someone w respectable intellect.. basta ba private conversation lang.. haha

Me:
Lol… True, true… Very few people are up to lengthy conversations these days.

HIM:
obviously, im a talker

Me:
Obviously :p

HIM:
u still not home?

8:21 pm
Me:
Just arrived. And I finally say your message. Lol.

In fb, I mean.

HIM:
lagi nalang ako nale late bec of my bathroom time.. di na nadala..

Me:
Bathroom time?

8:30 pm
HIM:
yeah when i bathe before going to work

Me:
Gaano ka ba katagal maligo?

HIM:
sometimes 40min sometimes 60.. matagal na sakin un kasi my travel time is long too

Me:
Seriously? 40 minutes? It takes me 20 to take a bath!

I might be bothering you at work ha.

HIM:
it’s fine.. i reply if i can.. i let the water run over me and relax.. i shave.. kasama na ung brushing of teeth doon

8:46 pm
Me:
Tagal pa din! Haha.. The only thing that takes me so long in the shower is shampooing

HIM:
ah saglit lang yan sakin obviously.. im a bit tall, so i takes time to soap and scrub every inch

Me:
I’m not tall at all, but my hair is long and thick. I guess that explains it :p My shower, anyway.

HIM:
oh and i have difficulty reaching my back so it affects the ‘handle time’ too.. haha

Me:
Lol. Difficulty reaching your back? You sure that isn’t old age? Lol.

HIM:
it’s more of the size.. hehe

Me:
If you say so… ;p

9:00 pm
HIM:
haha.. i play basketball.. i don’t have problems aging.. hehe

Me:
You play regularly now? The last memory of you playing basketball was when you were so proud of the 2 points you scored in one of the pb games.

HIM:
im still proud of those things.. i cant be very good at it anymore since i only started playing that i guess 3yrs back? but i can be active in d court.

Me:
Hey, I’m not saying anything 🙂

HIM:
haha.. im not embarassed at all.. nyehehe..

Me:
Okay, old man 🙂

HIM:
haha.. im turning 33.. that’s old.. in numbers! =p

Me:
When are you turning 33?

9:15 pm
HIM:
November

Me:
I’ll have to remember that

HIM:
and when is your birthday?

Me:
March

HIM:
ayyy tapos na.. march what? care to tell me ur age?

Me:
March 5 🙂 I turned 31 this year

HIM:
u look a lot better than any 31yr old i know

Me:
Haha… Thanks. I think it’s such a lie, but thanks anyway. Lol!

HIM:
it’s not.. it’s a matter of perception..

9:32 pm
Me:
Admittedly, your perception of me is very flattering 🙂

HIM:
my pleasure.. =D

Me:
🙂

HIM:
baka pagod ka na.. nagpapahinga ka na ba?

Me:
Yup… Just lying in bed, watching The Good Wife.

HIM:
is it a lady type series?

Me:
Courtroom drama

HIM:
oh yeah i kindof saw an advertisement of that

Me:
It’s a good show – good cast, good plot, good dialogue. And it’s smart.

10:03 pm
HIM:
baka maluto ang utak ko jan.. pang friends ako tsaka heroes.. walking dead.. spartacus.. naruto.. nyehehe

Me:
I’ve never watching walking dead and spartacus. Ang naruto hindi na talaga masundan. Haha… Pang samurai x at ghostfighter lang ang interest level ko. Lol

10:39 pm
HIM:
oh yeah sam x and ghost fighter.. kasi maikli.. naruto has a very deep story that’s why i like it..

*          *          *

Him: And you are?
Her: Very amused and slightly interested

Let’s see if you remember in March, old man.

More to come… Until next time.

 

*smirk*



Ciao Bella!

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48 in ’12: V is for Vengeance – The Beginning, Day 1

“Sometimes making a bad decision is better than making no decision at all.” One of the films that I show in training says that. I’ve always agreed. But now, seeing as how I was caught in the middle of a no-decision situation, I understand it in a whole different level.

In light of recent events, I have decided to write (transcribe) a series about, well, HIM. It is not my way of telling the world about how I was screwed over – I can’t place all the blame on him. It was partly my fault, after all. But it’s time to tell the truth… and let the pieces fall where they may.

For those of you who knew this was coming, enjoy. For those of you who come upon it, take the red pill and see the world from my eyes. For those of you who this is written for, I hope you find it. And I hope the truth gives you a thousand paper cuts that refuse to heal. And then I’ll pour the acid.

Yes, I am still in my Angry Phase.

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*all conversations were lifted verbatim from my phone / messenger. I apologize in advance for grammatical errors*

April 24, 2012

HIM:
ds my number kris riva =D

Me:
Very kewl. Go prep for work 🙂

HIM:
can you do your question again pls, i don’t understand one part of it..

Me:
Sorry, which part isn’t clear?

HIM:
the first part

Me:
Okay… Guys breaks up with me, right? Now he’s being all whiny about it. Normal ba yun?

HIM:
oh.. that cud mean many thhings.. opposite extremes really.. depends on d person i guess.. some guys are girls bec they’re confused.. they ‘want’ the break up but they can’t live w it (normal in lengthy relationships i guess)..

some crafty inglorious guys do it for show to un/consciously lash more emo sadism to the other party.. some other guys w low EQ (to my opinion) do it simply bec they’s just how they are..

Me:
Oh my gad!… You guys talaga!

HIM:
i could easily be wrong dear

Me:
Dear? 🙂 And you could just as easily be right… Or (other parties mentioned may have their names deleted) is really just such a GIRL!!!

HIM:
u’r a meany… =p

Me:
I always said I was a bitch.

HIM:
define bitch

Me:
I’m opinionated. I know what I want and I got after it. I’ll tell you as it is because i don’t believe in sugarcoating. I’m not a goody-goody. I defy what is considered to be “socially acceptable”. Should I go on?

HIM:
ok.. stop right there, baka magkagusto na ako sayo.. so are u girls really such bitches when breaking up w men u dated for years?

Me:
Only when they act like such girls.

“Baka magkagusto na ako sa’yo” – winner ka, dude

HIM:
haha.. i’m just messing w you.. pero winner talaga ako..

Me:
Ayan nanaman yang kayabangan mo eh. Okay na eh.

HIM:
no pun ntended in that.. sobbrang corny na nga ng patawa ko nayabangan ka naman.. haha.. sorry, disconnect.. =D

Me:
Hahahaha… Consequences of tryin to delivering a punchline through text. Lol.

HIM:
i like it when im dorky.. but sometimes it comes out differently.. =p

Me:
Dorky? When have you ever been dorky? Dorky people are endearing – and don’t date ask me what endearing means!

HIM:
lagi kaya… malas lang.. =p

Me:
Kung consistent, hindi na malas ang tawag dun.

HIM:
im sure hindi naman consistent ang kamalasan ko.. sorry naman sa mga di pa nakaka’malas’.. nyehehe..

Me:
Are you sure??? Lol!

Hindi pa swerte ang mga hindi pa nakaka’malas’?

HIM:
hmmm.. sarcasm.. mahina ako jan.. suko na ako.. talo na.. white flag.. surrender.. maawa ka sakin pls..

Me:
Ay ako naman naguumapaw ang sarcasm ko. I just get away with a lot of shit because I’m malambing magsalita

HIM:
ikr.. it’s fun being around such peeps.. wag lang ako ung victim.. nakakatakot!

Me:
Hahahaha… Now I’m wondering if I’ve ever “victimized” you before without you knowing it.

HIM:
im sure u have, one way or another.. but i dont want to think abt that anymore..

Me:
Hahaha… Why not??

HIM:
hahaha.. siyempre saka na pag nasa mood ako.. pagtatawanan ma lang ako e.. kawawa naman ako noh..

Me:
Hindi naman kita pagtatawanan noh. Mapapangitin lang ako dito. And you wouldn’t see that anyway. Lol

HIM:
wud hav been cool to see that.. nakauwi ka na ba?

Me:
Noty yet. I just finished a meeting. I have dinner plans pa. I try to stay away from the condo these days.

HIM:
good for u having the energy.. im so tamad i like it in d house.. makati pa rin ba work mo?

Me:
Yup. Super near RS.

Ir’s not that I have endless energy, but I’d rather arrive home just in time to sleep and not have to talk to anyone. (Description omitted) yung situation sa bahay.

HIM:
must be tough..

Me:
It’s (description omitted). I need to find a place of my own talaga.

You still rent out a place in makati?

HIM:
nope.. planning to go back but long shot.. i still live in cavite

Me:
Cavite??? Since when ka pa nakatira sa cavite> Huli na pala ako sa balita

HIM:
ano ka ba.. been there since 2007

Me:
Dude, I seriously did not know that.

HIM:
ok.. so u’r still in one condo?

Me:
And in one room

HIM:
wicked!

Me:
I know, right?! Talking about a (description omitted) situation

HIM:
im sure u guys can be adults abt it

Me:
Riiiiiight… You do remember who my ex is, right?

HIM:
yeah i do.. the new agent in PB right? back in the time

Me:
Yup. Not exactly a grown up. I’m definitely swearing off younger guys.

HIM:
sometimes it comes to that..

Me:
Haaay… I’ve definitely come to that

HIM:
malay mo naman… 4 yrs is 4 yrs

Me:
Asus. Yes, 4 years is 4 years, but over is also over. I’ve always been like that eh – when I’m done, I’m done.

Told you I was a bitch.

HIM:
my sister is like that too so i guess i gotcha

Me:
You sister must be awesome! Lol.

HIM:
she is.. =D

Me:
Just like me then!

HIM:
you bet..
san ka na?

Me:
Accenture. I’m having dinner with eloi

HIM:
pls send my regards to eloi.. miss ko na kayo.. =D

Me:
Nasabi ko na. Natawa sya.

HIM:
san ba ung accenture?

Me:
Cybergate lang sa boni. E I came from edsa shang so nagkita na kami.

HIM:
sounds fun.. sayang im normally in makati at 7pm

Me:
Late na yun noh… I get out of the office at 5:30.

HIM:
we cud prolly meet some time.. 6 pm sounds like a plan

Me:
Sige ba

HIM:
cool.. walang apihan ha!

Me:
Ay, I can’t promise that!

HIM:
nginig

Me:
Haha.. Bakit naman ganun ang reaction mo?

HIM:
kasi naman aapihin mo ako e.. hahaha.. im sure it will be fun..

Me:
Oo… Fun yun.. Fun naman ako mang-api eh. Lol

HIM:
turuan mo anlang ako.. mang api tayo ng ibang tao.. hehe

Me:
Hahaha… The best way to learn is through experience!

HIM:
hehe.. im my own guinea pig then

Me:
Exactly. It’ll be a surreal experience!

HIM:
nakakatakot.. =p

Me:
Lol. Are you going to back out?

HIM:
not if u dont want me to

Me:
Haha… You decide 🙂

HIM:
we’ll see.. =p

Me:
Hahaha… Chicken? ;p

HIM:
minsan.. hahaha.. i’m sure there’s going to be time for that.. =D

Me:
For you to be chicken? Lol!

HIM:
hehe.. there’d been so many times for that already.. =p

Me:
Don’t chicken out, dude

HIM:
i wont.. i miss hanging out too.. =D

Me:
Lol. Talaga lang ha

HIM:
oo noh

Me:
Oo na. Sige na. I believe you

HIM:
mabuti naman noh.. di ako yumayaman sa pagsisinungaling.. aren’t you home yet?

Me:
Not yet, why?

HIM:
i just figures.. it’s almost midnight na pala

Me:
Yup… Almost midnight. Drinking lang. I’ll be home in a while.

HIM:
drinking w eloi?

Me:
Yup. First drink in nearly 4 years.

HIM:
smoking and driking.. hmmm.. things i dont do anymore.. little drinking nalang.. paminsan

Me:
I’m hoping it’s a phase. I become really “fun” when I drink, which is why I don’t do it very often. And ang hina ko naman uminom noh.

HIM:
u’r fun enough without drinking, but im sure it’ll be fun drinking w u

Me:
I’m not sure if I should take that as a compliment or not.

HIM:
im trying to compliment you

Me:
Oh. Okay then. Thank you 🙂

HIM:
ayuz!

Me:
Lol

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Watch Out, Watch Out, Wherever You Are…

I just realized that when this whole thing started, I was also in an Angry Phase. Funny how’ve I’ve come full circle.

More to come, I promise.

*smirk*



Ciao Bella!

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47 in ’12: Enlightened

There’s a fire starting in my heart
Reaching a fever pitch, it’s bringing me out the dark
Finally I can see you crystal clear
Go ‘head and sell me out and I’ll lay your ship [shit] bare
See how I leave with every piece of you
Don’t underestimate the things that I will do

There’s a fire starting in my heart
Reaching a fever pitch
And it’s bringing me out the dark

The scars of your love remind me of us
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless
I can’t help feeling
We could have had it all
(You’re gonna wish you never had met me)
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You’re gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it, to the beat
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)

Baby, I have no story to be told
But I’ve heard one on you
And I’m gonna make your head burn
Think of me in the depths of your despair
Make a home down there
As mine sure won’t be shared

(You’re gonna wish you never had met me)
The scars of your love remind me of us
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
(You’re gonna wish you never had met me)
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
I can’t help feeling
We could have had it all
(You’re gonna wish you never had met me)
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You’re gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it, to the beat
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
We could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
You had my heart inside of your hand
But you played it, with a beating

Throw your soul through every open door (woah)
Count your blessings to find what you look for (woah)
Turn my sorrow into treasured gold (woah)
You’ll pay me back in kind and reap just what you sow (woah)
(You’re gonna wish you never had met me)
We could have had it all
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
We could have had it all
(You’re gonna wish you never had met me)
It all, it all, it all
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)

We could have had it all
(You’re gonna wish you never had met me)
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You’re gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it to the beat
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)

We could have had it all
(You’re gonna wish you never had met me)
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You’re gonna wish you never had met me)

But you played it
You played it
You played it
You played it to the beat.

Rolling in the Deep
Adele

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Hell Has No Fury… Like Me.

Dear A871KRR,

You haven’t seen me angry yet.

Don’t worry, your day will come. I’ll make sure it does.

Love,
Me

 

*smirk*



Ciao Bella!

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