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For Better Days to Come (100/365)

I see through eyes that with beauty weep
… that remembers the stories of a soul asleep
… that looks, in turn, through roses and ice
… that sees the truth amidst the lies

I feel through skin that spreads like light
… with fingers that traces in lack of sight
… with lips that linger in sorrow’s wake
… with hands that hold in blissful states

I live through wishes made by a heart
… through written words of hope in the dark
… through woven tales of love so true
… through the soul of The One who loves me, too

“Twilight Dreamer”
by Phoenixfire
December 31st 2011

Blessed Be…


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Calls of Nature

Strangely enough, I did not dream of Rachelle earlier.  Instead, I dreamt of her sister, Reneeca.

I was at a beach… I don’t recognize the place, but it looked a little like something out of Pirates.  There was a giant crab that we found on its back (and when I say giant, I mean wider than a sedan), which later on flipped over and scuttled away.  The only other person I remember from the dream was Gigi.

Anyway, I saw her as she walked past the doorway.  I asked for her name (as if I didn’t know) and who she was looking for.  It turned out she was looking for Boyfriend.  I didn’t mind, actually.  So we had a real semi-conversation and all’s well that ends well.  She looked exactly like her primary pic in Facebook.  If I put a picture of her here, it would be the one where she had these awesome boots on.  I absolutely loved her look in this photo (she’s the one on the right).

Some other things…

I had a bit of a chat with Roxanne today, though the IM feature of Facebook.  Here’s the whole of our conversation:


joey qustion pag ka b nagpost ka tas ni remove mu sa wall mu s profile mu ndi na mag appear sa wall?!



dapat hindi na

ang alam ko sa profile mo tatanggalin yun

hindi ako sure kung meh option to remove sa wall eh



btw, meh nipost akong bulletin sa fs… meh opening yng account namin

baka meh kakilala kang type mag call center




ahhh try ko mag ask hehe



hehe… salamat!

Wasn’t that nice?  Actually, I’m really not that bad… 😉

And just because I’m running out of time, here’s my star stuff for today…

The Bottom Line

You are projecting an aura of calm confidence today — who cares if it’s bravado?

In Detail

The pace of the day will be fast — but you’ll love every minute of it. For a while now you’ve been itching for the people around you to pick up the pace, and you will definitely get your wish now. You will be in the middle of the action, playing conductor to a mad bunch of musicians who won’t always follow your lead. Humor will be a useful tool for getting what you want from people who don’t want to appear to be under your thumb. Reverse psychology will work wonders with a younger frien

Catch y’all later!

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The Bottom Line

Keep puzzling it out while you wait for clarity. Bewildered? It’s all hazy now.

In Detail

Sometimes to get yourself together, you have to allow yourself to go to pieces first. Sounds puzzling? Well, it can be. If the solution or the root of a problem has been eluding you, it’s time to dismantle all the parts that make up the whole and examine each of them separately before you try to build some kind of coalition or solution. That way, you can identify where the issue is and really fix things, as opposed to applying merely a temporary solution.

I, like, so agree!!!  Can someone please tell that to Mother?

I had another dream earlier… and I can’t remember most of it (which is driving me crazy, really).  What I do remember is that it felt like little snippets of memories that someone tried to put together.  I didn’t make a lot of sense and, right now, I can’t find a logical thread connecting the things that happened.

It started with me finding out that Rachelle and I had a common friend in Facebook – Ykhing.  In reality, we have 4 common friends: Reneeca, Karen, Rosemarie and Roxanne.  Then we suddenly shift and Boyfriend is in the story with me.  We were in Bulacan – I’m assuming Hagonoy because that’s the only place in Bulacan that I’ve been to – and were walking past this convenience store that looks like one of those stores in Baguio.  In fact, the store had a distinct Baguio feel.  I should have looked in the cases to see what they were selling.  I only said that it was a convenience store because those were the words on the door.

Anyway, Boyfriend glances at the convenience store and reacts – the kind wherein you see someone you haven’t seen for the longest time.  I look through the glass doors and who do I see?  Rachelle.  Apparently, she’s working in the convenience store that summer (I don’t know how I come up with these things… but I was sure that it was summer.  I guess my dreams follow the US calendar for education).  She and Boyfriend greet each other like long lost friends which, surprisingly, doesn’t hurt.  But it was slightly irritating.  Then Boyfriend leaves the store for some strange reason and I’m left there, with the girl I have a perverse interest in.  So I walk around the store and she stays near the cases (at least she doesn’t follow me around like those other annoying sales people in other establishments).  I don’t have the foggiest of what happened after that, but what I remember next was that I was on my way out of the store.  I was halfway out when I turned to her and asked, “What’s wrong with you?  Don’t you love Andrew?”

She gives me a straight answer.  “No.  Inom lang kasi ng inom.  Gimmik ng gimmik.”

Aaand… nothing.  I don’t remember anything else after that.  I’m trying to find a picture of her that I could upload in here.  Ooooh!  Found one.  This was from her trip to Singapore earlier last year.


Holed Up in Our Room in Colorado

Drowning in The Slight Hum of my Mac

Blessed Be…

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Weekend Most Wanted

My Star Sign for today actually makes sense…

The Bottom Line

Today’s tasks won’t take too much energy or enthusiasm – it’s an autopilot today.


Do you know your limits? Now’s a great time to get a better idea of what you can and cannot do, or else you will end up getting frustrated. Recently, you have been pushing yourself to stretch and grow, but if you continue on this aggressive path you will get overwhelmed. To prevent that, you have to take care of yourself. It’s time to act more conservatively and slow down. Take a step back from life — you won’t miss out on a thing.

I woke up at 5:30 pm today.  Boyfriend and I were supposed to go to GH, have a dinner (it’s our monthsary) and watch a movie… we’ve changed that into a nice dinner at home.  We’ll probably spend a most of the night watching DVDs or Visionaries, eating homemade popcorn.  I am mentally and emotionally exhausted.  I really do need to just stop and rest.

Sometimes I feel that more appropriate term is to give myself a break… and maybe forgive myself a little.

Work is no longer a refuge these days… it’s not what I do that’s become a chore, it’s the people I deal with.  Deep, deep down inside I’m in awe of what Aida did – leaving the company after 6 years of working there.  When something like this happens – someone I know deciding to change their paths – it makes me wonder why I can’t do it.  I’ve got good credentials, I know I’m highly competent and absolutely brilliant (=p)… so why can’t I let go of this thing that is starting to tear at my soul and try finding fulfillment elsewhere?

I know I have to stop being afraid of having to start again.  Why is this so difficult when I’ve rewritten myself so many times?

*sigh* So many questions… so little time to figure out the answers.

In an effort not to depress myself to death, let’s move on to other things…

I’ve finally finished Kathleen McGowan’s Book of Love.  It took me a while to get into it, but once I did, I couldn’t put the book down (which caused me a couple of sleepless mornings).  As a tribute to the beautiful passages that I’ve read, I’m planning to put some of it here.  This blog’s earned a couple of steady readers and I know they’d appreciate that too.

Currently, I’m fixating on Emmy Rossum and her song “Slow Me Down”.  It’s very reminiscent of Michelle Tumes’ Lovely which, by the way, Rossum has revived.  It’s haunting without sounding too much like a Gregorian Chant.  I’ve asked Boyfriend to download her songs for me.

I had a couple of weird dreams today – none of which I can remember with much clarity.  I have this feeling that I dreamt of one thing, became semi-awake, fell back asleep and dreamt of something else.  What I do remember is one of my dreams had Rachelle in it.  I wish from the bottom of my heart that I could remember what it was about.  All I have left is knowing that in the dream we were very much aware of each other’s existence… to the point that we actually had conversations.  Again, I wished I could remember more.

Oooohh… Dinner time! Gotta go!  Gotta go!  Gotta go!

Holed Up In The Big Room in Colorado

Drowning in The Hum of the Aircon

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