Have you ever chanced upon a song that completely captured everything that you’ve ever wanted in life?
I’ve written about this in the past – if you’ve ever read that entry about Enchanted – that moment that Robert looked up and saw Giselle on top of the staircase and every single person in the room just knew that he was so deeply and irrevocably in love with her, even if he wasn’t aware of it himself.
In more recent films, I got another glimpse of it while watching Crazy Rich Asians. That wedding scene – when Nick gazes out to the pews and sets his eyes on Rachel, who was tearing up. You can practically see the pieces fall into place and click with finality. There was wonder in his eyes – wonder, and that dawning realization that this was the girl that he wanted to spend the rest of his life with.
Yes, I am a hopeless romantic… and I still believe in the possibility of a great love and a grand passion. I’m old enough to understand that love is a choice that we make everyday – no matter how mundane things become, no matter how difficult things get. But I know that I’m still choosing to believe that there will be moments that sweep me off my feet, that there will be moments that take my breath away… that there will be moments that fill my heart with so much joy that tears will start sliding down my cheeks.
Maybe it’s selfish of me to think that I deserve everything – a love that can be as comfortable as silence and as raging as white water rapids… As deep as darkness and as light as a summer breeze. But a girl can dream, yes? And it’s that dream that I choose to hold on to.
I want to be the reason why someone’s world stops turning. I want my eyes to be the reason why someone suddenly feels they’ve been struck by lightning. I want my touch to be freezing and burning at the same time. I want to be the reason for speechlessness because no words are enough. I want to be the song that is both so happy and so sad and makes a heart feel like bursting from undeniable bliss and inexplicable sorrow.
I want to be the answer to a wish that no one even knew was being made.