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43 in ’12: Up Close & Personal

Everything I’ve written on this site has been personal… But recently, I’ve decided to open something a little different… Going through the song that made up most of my life. I’ve done 10 in Bits and Pieces. Here’s the second 10.

Enjoy 🙂

The Song: Landslide, Dixie Chicks
The Words: “But time makes you bolder / Children get older / I’m getting older too…”
Why I Love It: I heard this in Glee, when Santana and Britney sang it with Holly Holiday and I had tears running down my face by the first chorus. Originally done by Fleetwood Mac, but I prefer the version of the Dixie Chicks. Elise Testone, Colton Dixon and Phil Phillips also did their version in the most recently concluded season of American Idol. It’s definitely something worth checking out.

The Song: One of These Days, Michelle Branch
The Words: “… And I don’t mind saying / A part of me left with you / One of these days / I won’t be afraid of staying with you / I hope and I pray / Waiting to find a way back to you / ‘Cause that’s where I’m home…”
Why I Love It: It’s a sad song. I am perpetually in love with sad songs. Most of the songs in this playlist always make me cry.
Who It’s For: You, my best friend with whom I eventually fell in love.

The Song: You Can’t Stop the Beat, Cast of Hairspray
The Words: “…So if you don’t like the way I look / Well, I just don’t give a damn!”
Why I Love It: I love running with this song blaring in my ears! It completely brings my average speed up 😛 But I love how completely empowering this song is… And I completely LOVE Hairspray!

The Song: I Can’t Make You Love Me, Bonnie Raitt
The Words: “…Cause I can’t make you love me / If you don’t / I can’t make your heart feel / Something it won’t…”
Why I Love It: I first heard this song on The Voice on Black Saturday. It’s such a sad, sad song… One of my friends in the office said this is the kind of song that you listen to while in front of the fireplace holding a glass of whiskey. He was right.
Who It’s For: You, the Abstract Artist.

The Song: In Demand, Texas
The Words: “…He wrote my name on silver sands / I think you know you’ve lost the love of your life / (You said) I was the best you ever had…”
Why I Love It: Have you seen the video? It was so damn sexy… and you get to see Alan Rickman dancing 🙂
Who It’s For: You, the Voice of Darkness

The Song: Taking Chances, Celine Dion
The Words: “Don’t know much about your life / Don’t know much about your world but / Don’t want to be alone tonight / In this planet we call earth…”
Why I Love It: Although I am a great Celine Dion fan, I kind of stopped following her albums after the release of Falling Into You. Then I heard Lea Michelle sing it on Glee (so many of my songs in this playlist were picked up from watching that show) and I just completely fell in love with the high note that she hit. So I was sitting there and I said, “I gotta learn how to do that, too.” So I did.
Who It’s For: You, Green Eyes.

The Song: Crave, Marc Dorsey
The Words: “…And since you’re gone / My heart won’t behave / It’s your love I still crave…”
Why I Love It: It was Brian McKnight who said the reason why he kept on writing sad songs was because not everyone can relate to happiness, but everyone can relate to being sad. He made a very good point… And worked particularly well for me that I really felt like most of his songs were written especially for me. Crave talks about still being in love with someone who’s no longer with you. I’ve lived that life 10 times now. Apparently, it still hurts the same every single time.
Who It’s For: You, the Son of Adam.

The Song: Strong Enough, Sheryll Crow
The Words: “When I’ve shown you that I just don’t care / When I’m throwing punches in the air / When I’m broken down and I can’t stand / Will you be man enough to be my man?”
Why I Love It: This is for every man who wants to win my heart… But more than that, this particular song brings to mind that one teambuilding in Laguna, when – at that time – it felt like my life fell apart. And we were so far from civilization that I couldn’t run away no matter how much I wanted.
Who It’s For: You, my First Grown-Up Love

The Song: So Close, Jon McLaughlin
The Words: “So close to reaching that famous happy end / Almost believing this one’s not pretend / Now you’re beside me / And look how far we’ve come / So far… We are / So close…”
Why I Love It: It was that scene from Enchanted that sealed the deal for me. When Patrick Dempsey started singing to Amy Adams, tears were running down my face. I remember thinking to myself, “This is what I should have – a grand passion and a great romance.”
Who It’s For: You, Baby Bear… and, more recently, You, Baby.

The Song: Breakaway, Kelly Clarkson
The Words: “… Trying hard to reach out / But when I tried to speak out / Felt like no one could hear me…”
Why I Love It: Considering that I’ve felt like an outsider for most of my life, this song resonated with my soul on so many levels. I can’t get through it without crying.
Who It’s For: Me 🙂

Soul Speaking

I’ve come a long way, haven’t I? But the journey’s not over yet and I hope you continue to travel with me. Till we meet again…



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40 in ’12: Bits and Pieces

Of the hundreds and hundreds of songs in my phone (not to mention in iTunes), there are those that belong to that one playlist that is aptly called “My Life in Song”. On the way home tonight, I suddenly realized the reason why that playlist was titled as such in the first place. Those songs – it held bits and pieces of my life. Just like how I said I didn’t feel things like most people, maybe I don’t remember things the way most people do either.

So here’s to everything that made me who I am. If I had a chance to live it all over again, I wouldn’t change a thing.

Dancing Through the Dark in Neon Lights

The Song: I Want It That Way, Backstreet Boys
Why I Love It: The video. And this was when I realized Kevin Richardson was hot. Yes, I am a closet fan (I guess the secret’s out, huh?)

The Song: Suddenly, Soraya
The Words: “Suddenly in my life / There’s something that’s got me mystified
Why I Love It: Asides from the fact that it’s got an awesome melody in a slightly indie sort of way, it always reminds me of those little moments when I realize life can still catch me by surprise.

The Song: Alone, Heart
The Words: “And I was going to tell you tonight / But the secret is still my own / And my love for you is still unknown / Alone”
Why I Love It: Not many people can do it justice. I can. And it was the song I sang during my first christmas party with IGPI.
Who It’s For: You, the one I always loved but never told

The Song: Rumour Has It/Someone Like You, Glee
The Words: “Rumour has it I’m the one you’re leaving her for”
Why I Love It: Listening to this song while walking makes me want to strut. Seriously.

The Song: Only Hope, Switchfoot
The Words: “When it feels like my dreams are so far / Sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again”
Why I Love It: Although I prefer Switchfoot’s version to the one used in the movie, that kiss between Shane West and Mandy Moore made my heart skip a beat. Plus that whole “I didn’t want to be angry at god” shit hit too close to home.

The Song: Kiss Me, Sixpence None the Richer
The Words: “Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance / Silver moon sparkling”
Why I Love It: She’s All That. Freddie Prinze Jr. Besides, I’m a writer… with words like that, why wouldn’t I love it?

The Song: Leave Right Now, Will Young
The Words: “I think I’d better leave right now / Before I fall any deeper”
Why I Love It: Because it’s the one lesson I apparently never learn.

The Song: Through the Rain, Mariah Carey
The Words: “When you keep crying out to be saved / But nobody comes”
Why I Love It: Because the goddamn song makes me cry.

The Song: Without You, David Guetta featuring Usher
The Words: “I am lost, I am vain / I will never be the same / Without you”
Who It’s For: You, the one who keeps finding me… and the one I keep losing.

The Song: Seasons of Love, Soundtrack from Rent (the movie)
The Words: “In truths that she learned / Or times that he cried / In bridges he burned / Or the way that she died”
Why I Love It: Reminds me of senior year, when I first learned the song. Also, in the movie, it’s the first song the cast does… which essentially meant I was bawling my eyes out in the first five minutes of the film.

First 10 first… Tune in for more (pun intended).



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11 in ’12: Damian

In the last thirty-six hours, I have been watching episodes of The Glee Project. I’ve been trying to stretch it – trying to make it last as long as possible – but, finally, as I’m beginning to write this entry, Alex, Lindsay, Damian and Samuel are singing their last Last Chance Performances.

Before I move on, a little background. I have never, EVER been interested in The Glee Project in the past. During its run, I was able to catch part of an episode – the one where Emily gets cut – and the only thing that stuck in my head was Cameron and his rendition of Your Song. And then I went on to becoming uninterested all over again.

Then Rory Flanagan showed up in Glee. And then nine episodes later, Joe Hart appeared. Needless to say, suddenly, I was interested.

Enter The Glee Project.

In the course of 10 episodes, I have fallen in like, fallen in love, was fascinated and appalled by various characters (I’m not going to spend time describing the show. If you need this, however, go here. Or here.). Let’s take a look, shall we?

Here are the ones that made me smile time and time again…

Cameron
For me, he was the first person who made an impression. Me catching the episode where he sang Your Song for his Last Chance Performance didn’t hurt either. Cameron is awkward… and geeky… and a little coordinated. But something does burst out of him during his performances. And I’ve always had a thing for people who don’t fit in.

He’s also the only person who left the competition out of his own volition. I can’t find fault in this because he left for the right reasons – but I can’t help but feel the void that his departure left behind. If he had stayed on, he probably would have made it all the way to the top. One good thing did come out of his leaving, though – that was when Damian started getting better.

Marissa
There’s something about this girl that makes me want to look at her. I have a feeling it’s her hair. I look at her and I think of the song Jolene.

On the episode “Vulnerability”, she decided to change her sign in the middle of the video shoot. From saying “flawed” it was changed to “Anorexic”. I don’t think I appreciated her more than I did at that particular moment.

And, of course, there was that kiss with Samuel during “Don’t You Want Me?”

Hanna
Hanna is sweetheart. She’s funny and insecure and just so… real. Although I never really rooted for her to win (not like Cameron who was just such a strong contender since the beginning), she was one of those people that I appreciated because she was so sincere.

But I didn’t like everyone…

Alex
There’s no denying that Alex was one talented dude/dudette. When he finished singing “And I’m Telling You I’m Not Going”, I wanted to jump off the bed and clap. The thing that gets to me when it comes to Alex is that I kind of got the impression that he like to dish it, but he can’t take it.

He did soften up towards the end of the competition and seemed to have a real moment at one point, but it wasn’t enough to make me want to want him to win.

But more than Alex, there was…

Lindsay
I hated Lindsay.

True, she’s overflowing with talent, but I felt that the title that she really deserved was that of Drama Queen. She’s very seldom overtly snarky – except for that one time with Elis – but her “confession” shots say so much more about her than anything else.

Then there’s the limitless need of being the best. When Marissa was asked to kiss Samuel in “Don’t You Want Me?”, she just had to go off and kiss Cameron. When Alex broke down and cried during his session with Nikki, she just had to burst into tears too.

With Rachel Barry, it was kind of annoying (remember when she decided to run against Kurt for Senior Class President?) but at least she redeemed herself in the end. For Lindsay… well, let’s just say that the show’s over and my opinion of her hasn’t changed.

And then there were those who sparked my interest in the first place…

Samuel
This guy has the “It Factor” oozing from every inch of his body. To be honest, I started watching The Glee Project because of him and his appearance in “Heart”. I mean, the guy is HOT. You have to be blind not to see that.

I’m such a sucker for the rocker/tortured artist type. And Samuel fell right into this category.

Damian
And then there was Damian. I’d have to agree with what Nikki told him before his final performance – “You’re not the strongest singer. You’re not the strongest actor. You’re not the strongest dancer.”

There is something about this kid that I simply cannot explain. The first time he showed up in Glee, he wasn’t a standout. That’s why I never took interest. But in the show…

In the course of watching episode after episode of The Glee Project, I realized that I always start out looking for Samuel.

But I can’t take my eyes off Damian.


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Born to be Brave (69/365)

To all the haters out there… This one’s for you 🙂

Yeah, you may think that I’m a zero
But, hey, everyone you wanna be
Probably started off like me
You may say that I’m a freakshow (I don’t care)
But, hey, give me just a little time
I bet you’re gonna change your mind

All of the dirt you’ve been throwin’ my way
It ain’t so hard to take, that’s right
‘Cause I know one day you’ll be screamin’ my name
And I’ll just look away, that’s right

Just go ahead and hate on me and run your mouth
So everyone can hear
Hit me with the worst you got and knock me down
Baby, I don’t care
Keep it up and soon enough you’ll figure out
You wanna be
You wanna be
A loser like me
A loser like me

Push me up against the locker
And hey, all I do is shake it off
I’ll get you back when I’m your boss
I’m not thinkin’ ’bout you haters
‘Cause hey, I could be a superstar
I’ll see you when you wash my car

All of the dirt you’ve been throwin’ my way
It ain’t so hard to take, that’s right
‘Cause I know one day you’ll be screamin’ my name
And I’ll just look away, that’s right

Just go ahead and hate on me and run your mouth
So everyone can hear
Hit me with the worst you got and knock me down
Baby, I don’t care
Keep it up and soon enough you’ll figure out
You wanna be
You wanna be
A loser like me
A loser like me
A loser like me

Hey, you, over there
Keep the L up-up in the air
Hey, you, over there
Keep the L up, ’cause I don’t care
You can throw your sticks, and you can throw your stones
Like a rocket, just watch me go
Yeah, l-o-s-e-r
I can only be who I are

Just go ahead and hate on me and run your mouth
So everyone can hear
Hit me with the worst you got and knock me down
Baby, I don’t care
Keep it up and soon enough you’ll figure out
You wanna be
You wanna be
A loser like me
A loser like me

Just go ahead and hate on me and run your mouth
So everyone can hear
Hit me with the worst you got and knock me down
Baby, I don’t care
Keep it up and soon enough you’ll figure out
You wanna be
You wanna be
A loser like me (A loser like me)
A loser like me (A loser like me)
A loser like me 

“Loser Like Me”, Glee

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Where Have You Been… I’ve Been Waiting For You All My Life (23/365)

Those were Blaine’s words in the latest episode of Glee.  Can you tell I’m such a fan?  That one moment when Blaine finally realizes his feelings for Kurt was going beyond the borders of friendship… Then he leans over and kisses him on the lips.  In all honesty, I didn’t know if I wanted to continue watching because it such a “kilig” moment or if I wanted to look away.  Again, nothing against the whole male-male thing.  My best friend is gay and I love him to bits, but still I don’t think I want to bear witness to two guys making out.  In fact, I don’t want to bear witness to two anyones making out.

Anyway.

It’s not even 7:30 am on a Friday and I already feel out of sorts.  I’m stressing out so much about Monday’s run that I’ve dreamt about people from the office last night.  My stomach is tied up in knots and I woke up several times during the night, having anxiety attacks.  I hate this.  I feel so pressured and I can feel myself starting to crack.  And, with the looks of my schedule, I won’t even have time to destress this weekend.  All that plus the fact that Brian and I are on not-so-good terms right now.  Mr. Murphy, won’t you please go away?

So I’m trying to hold on to things that’ll help me keep my sanity… and, right now, I’m just praying that I hold it together until I leave Tektite.  I’m very, very good at compartmentalizing and generally I deal with stress pretty well, but this week… It’s been unbelievable.

I have to go now, but I’ll leave you with the words to “Hold Me Now”.

You know those things that keep me sane?  This is one of them.

 

From glass alabaster she poured out the depths of her soul

Oh, foot of Christ, would you wait if her harlotry’s known?

Falls a tear to darken the dirt

Of humblest offerings to forgive the hurt

She is strong enough to stand in your love

I can hear her say


I am weak

I am poor

I am broken, Lord, but I’m yours

Hold me now

Hold me now


Let he without sin cast the first stone if you will

To say that my bride isn’t worth half the blood that I’ve spilled

Point your finger and laugh if you choose to say

My beloved is borrowed and used

She is strong enough to stand in my love

I can hear her say

 

I am weak

I am poor

I am broken, Lord, but I’m yours

Hold me now

Hold me now

 

Hold Me Now

Jennifer Knapp

 

Another thing you should know about me… I am faithful, not religious.  I don’t go to church.  I believe in a God, but maybe not the one the Roman Catholic Church believes in.  The Church, among so many other things, were one of those that broke me.

But this song… Let me put it this way – I’m not a fan.  I haven’t worshipped for a very, very long time.  But this song, it breaks my heart every time.  And then it gives me hope.


Blessed Be…

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