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That Other World I Live In (92/365)

I spent most of Sunday watching old One Tree Hill episodes.

By “With Tired Eyes, Tired Minds, Tired Souls, We Slept”, my pillow was wet with tears.

Yes, I have issues.  But this is my world.

Live in it if you dare.

Ciao Bella!


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One (89/365)

At this moment there are 6 billion, 4 hundred 70 million, 8 hundred 18 thousand, 6 hundred 71 people in the world.

Some are running scared.
Some are coming home.
Some tell lies to make it through the day.
Others are just not facing the truth.
Some are evil men at war with good.
And some are good, struggling with evil.

Six billion people in the world.
Six billion souls.  

And sometimes, all you need is one.

(Peyton Sawyer’s voice over)
One Tree Hill – Season 3, Episode 2

Blessed Be…

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When You Feel That You’re Just Not Enough (87/365)

I don’t need to be anything other
Than a prison guard’s son
I don’t need to be anything other
Than a specialist’s son
I don’t have to be anyone other
Than the birth of two souls in one
Part of where I’m going, is knowing where I’m coming from

I don’t want to be
Anything other than what I’ve been trying to be lately
All I have to do
Is think of me and I have peace of mind
I’m tired of looking ’round rooms
Wondering what I’ve got to do
Or who I’m supposed to be
I don’t want to be anything other than me

I’m surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I’m surrounded by imposters everywhere I turn
I’m surrounded by identity crisis everywhere I turn
Am I the only one who noticed?
I can’t be the only one who’s learned!

I don’t want to be
Anything other than what I’ve been trying to be lately
All I have to do
Is think of me and I have peace of mind
I’m tired of looking ’round rooms
Wondering what I’ve got to do
Or who I’m supposed to be
I don’t want to be anything other than me

Can I have everyone’s attention please?
If you’re not like this and that, you’re gonna have to leave
I came from the mountain
The crust of creation
My whole situation-made from clay to stone
And now I’m telling everybody

I don’t want to be
Anything other than what I’ve been trying to be lately
All I have to do
Is think of me and I have peace of mind
I’m tired of looking ’round rooms
Wondering what I’ve got to do
Or who I’m supposed to be
I don’t want to be anything other than me

I don’t want to be
I don’t want to be
I don’t want to be
I don’t want to be

I Don’t Want to Be
Gavin deGraw


When you feel that you’re just not good enough… You’re wrong 🙂

Blessed Be…

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Because I Can’t Let It Go (77/365)

Still watching One Tree Hill season 1.

Brooke got Lucas drunk and they ended up making out in an alley somewhere.  And then he comes home with a tattoo (the chinese symbol for “fun”).

God, Lucas is an idiot.

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On a rather unrelated note…

I’m  starting a new series – NBC’s Grimm.  Like Once Upon a Time, the show is loosely based on various characters found in fairytales.  Once Upon a Time, however, takes on a more magical, Charmed feel, while Grimm is something of an action, Buffy the Vampire Slayer thing.  Both have proven to be interesting.

Grimm begins its first episode with a girl going out for a run (and I’m taking this as a sign that I should go jogging today.  Due to recent events, I’ve missed out on one).  I had a rather strange moment, finding myself thinking that the Eurythmics’ Sweet Dreams would be a good song to run to.  Anyway, so this girl goes running on a trail in the woods.  Somewhere along the way, she notices a little figurine on a piece of fallen wood (it looked like Gretel, if you ask me).  She stops and picks it up and then suddenly this black furry blur comes out of nowhere and drags her off-screen.  We then hear her screams and, at this point, it would be appropriate to assume that she was dead.

Now Buffy the Vampire Slayer held my interest for so many years – up until that very, very disappointing finale – so it’s very possible that I may get hooked on this show.  Imagine CSI crossed with Buffy the Vampire Slayer without Nicholas Brandon as a comic relief.

I guess, for now, it’s wait and see for me.


Blessed Be…

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This 4-Day Thing (76/365)

For the first time since last October (and on that note, another year of being employed has passed… Yay me!), I get to enjoy four days of rest.  There was that other 4-day weekend last September (I think… I can’t remember anymore), but half of that was eaten up by a 16-hour intervention up in Antipolo.  So technically, this is my very first 4-day weekend.  I have nothing planned – partly because Brian started his new job and his schedules a little wonky and being as new as he is, he has no right to complain – or miss a day.  Partly, too, it’s because I just really, Really, REALLY need some rest (I thought of getting a book report done somewhere in between but that hasn’t happened yet).

Today was Day One and, in all honesty, this has got to be the most unproductive day of my entire year.  And I’m not so sure that’s a good thing.  I did get a chance to finally start watching Merlin – this British fantasy series Chris has watched for four seasons now.  As the title implies, it’s a about Merlin – yes, the warlock from King Arthur’s court – but the story is spun in a very different way.  Arthur’s eighteen when the first season starts and apparently grew up with Uther.  Morgana also lives with them as the King’s ward – we later on find out that she is Uther’s biological daughter.  She’s a good character in the beginning and, in many instances, shows great concern for Arthur’s well-being.  Guinevere – here called Gwen – is not of noble birth, but fits in the ensemble as Morgana’s handmaid.  There is an old scholar named Gaius who serves as Merlin’s mentor – I don’t remember him from the original series, but there’s got to be something new, right?  (*note: I’m watching One Tree Hill and Nathan just kissed Haley for the first time and I’m so kilig*) Nimue has also appeared on two episodes but as a villain.  She almost kills Merlin in episode 4.  Considering that there is so much magic going around, it’s ironic that the story is set in a kingdom headed by a royal who is deathly paranoid about anything and anyone who does magic.

The other show I spent the afternoon watching was One Tree Hill.  I started watching this show when it was on it’s third season.  At that point, I went out of my way to buy DVDs of the first two seasons.  After that, I fell in love with the series.  I have a lot of issues, so this show is perfect for me.  Every episode is some source of catharsis for me.

I have been extremely enamored with Lucas Scott (Chad Michael Murray) since the beginning.  At the end of six seasons (I stopped watching after that), I was very pleased that he ended up with Payton.  Now, in the advent of all the downloading happening, I decided that I was going to download all previous seasons and relive their stories all over again.  Season One was conveniently completed right before the holidays started and I have this entire weekend to be with Lucas, Nathan, Haley, Payton and Brooke.

Then there are the books that I’ll be putting in the iPad.  The one I’m really excited about is the second in Rick Riordan’s Heroes of Olympus series: Son of Neptune.  I recently finished The Lost Hero and I still haven’t gotten over how good it was.

Anyway, enough for now.  I’m moved on to last week’s episode of The Secret Circle.  I’m still waiting for Adam and Cassie to finally get together.

Blessed Be…

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The Art of Simple Living – Part Un (74/365)

I found another awesome blog to read.  One of its entries speaks of simple living.  The author was right when she said that every person would define a “simple life” differently.  But more importantly, she was able to point out that one commonality between all those definitions – the creation of peace and harmony and living each day as easy as possible.

The 40 Little Lessons she shared is something I think most people would appreciate.  It made for a good read as well as an interesting (and cathartic) entry.

Lesson #1: Accept that you can not please everyone and stop trying to.

This has always been a damn if you do, damn if you don’t kind of thing.  No matter what you do, you will always encounter those people who do not agree, approve or be happy with what you’re doing.  So stop trying.  It’s hard to keep changing who you are and what you do just to make others happy.  I always try to remember that those who matter won’t mind and those who mind shouldn’t matter.  Or, as I once posted as an IM handle, “I don’t mind, and you don’t matter.”

Lesson #2: Be honest and open, it saves time.

People are not mind-readers.  If you get frustrated because other people expect you to understand them without them saying anything, then don’t do it to anyone else.

Lesson #3: Stick to a budget and live below your means.

I hate “surviving” – living from one paycheck to the next.  Most people think it’s a joke when I say I’m in “panahon de peligro” (dangerous times), but it’s been a real thing and it terrifies me.  So I’ve made up a new financial plan and hopefully, in a few months, I would have made progress.

Lesson #4: Start your day ahead of schedule.

A couple of years ago, I took the MBTI and it turns out I was an extreme J (judgmental).  It’s interpreted as being a stickler for schedules and it was so true.  I still think I’m one of the most adaptable people I know – this kind of flexibility is truly a gift – but I still like having some structure in my life.  This would probably explain why I really like making lists – and why horribly inconsiderate people piss me off to the ends of the earth.

Lesson #5: When it comes to cleaning, find corners you can cut.

I appreciate a clean room as much as the next person, but I’m not going to get my panties up in a bunch if it isn’t.  What I don’t like is when people get their panties all up in a bunch because a room isn’t clean and act as if you’re the only person who made the mess.

Lesson #6: Stop obsessing about other people, be true to yourself.

Go back to lesson #1: No matter what you do, you can’t please everyone… So you might as well do the things that make you happy.  Just make sure you’re prepared for what happens afterwards.

Lesson #7: Get your home, and work place, organized once and for all.

We all need a little organization in our lives, so we might as well do it.  As with anything else, it’s always the first step that’s the hardest.

Lesson #8: Purge regularly, both people and possessions, that have no use in your life.

It only truly matters if it’s real.  Real friends.  Things with real sentimental value.  When you really look at it, you’d be surprised how few the real ones are.

Lesson #9: Stay on top of debt.

There’s the credit card.  And my mobile network provider.  Then the cable.  And the electricity.  That doesn’t even include the things I really want to buy.

But I’m working on this.  I really am.  I know I’ve lost it for the last couple of years, but I have a plan now.  All I have to do is stick to it.

Lesson #10: Don’t be afraid to ask for help when you need it.

In the Devil’s Advocate, Al Pacino said, “Vanity is definitely my favorite sin.”  Vanity.  Pride.  We hold on to it so much because we think it makes us look weak when we let go and start needing other people.  But it’s the best of us, I think, who knows when we should hold on… And when it’s finally time to let go.

Check our Lessons 11 to 20 some other time.

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On a completely unrelated note, I’m watching the first season of One Tree Hill (which is presently on it’s 8th season).  I’m starting the third episode and I’m still wiping away the tears I cried over the first two.  Talk about having issues.

Till then… Ciao.

Blessed Be…

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There is a Land Called Passive Aggressiva…

… and I am their queen.

I picked that line up from Grey’s Anatomy.  Season 2, if I’m not mistaken – which, again, reminds me that I really should start watching the rest of Season 5.  And cry buckets and buckets of tears.  I’ve gotten hooked on How I Met Your Mother (Boyfriend and I should technically be done with all the completed seasons but he refuses to watch the last couple of episodes of Season 4) and Supernatural (Boyfriend doesn’t watch this) and have kind of forgotten about some of the other things that I used to watch.  Maybe it’s time to rekindle my relationships with Christina and Miranda (Grey’s Anatomy), Haley and Payton (One Tree Hill) and Addison (Private Practice).  But then again, I still have seasons 8 and 9 of CSI: Las Vagas to watch.  And just because I’m writing, I have to put this down.  I hate Jorja Fox’s character.  I wish she were dead.  Haha…

Another thing… here’s what my horoscope from Friendster say:

The Bottom Line

The stars are playing mom. Are you eating right? Exercising? Wearing a sweater?

In Detail

Some of the people around you are moving into exciting changes, and their happiness is contagious. Volunteer to help them with any finishing touches and get in on the good karma they’re enjoying. You are as happy for them as you would be for yourself in this situation, and your generous spirit is helping them enjoy their success. Not everyone can be this big hearted, and they appreciate your support. This is a growth phase for your relationships.

Boyfriend, although not ecstatically happy, is probably the only one of my 6-degrees who’s going through “exciting changes”, so I’m thinking it might be about him.  Lines 3 and 4 are so not true – not because I don’t want him to have new friends or that I don’t like this particular group of unknown people.  It’s just not me.  I’m incredibly proud of him and I’m glad that things seem to be working out with the whole Convergys thing… but I’m not about to go jumping up and down about it.  Not my style.  As I’ve told my mentees, time and time again… my particular brand of humor is very dry and often times very sarcastic.  So no abnormal amounts of happiness for me.

Admittedly, what happened last Friday was most definitely not one his shining moments of glory, but it wasn’t so bad.  Honestly?  I wasn’t mad.  I was just disappointed that I had to wait for 4 hours for him to show up… and made my friends wait along with me.  But it wasn’t a biggie so that blew over quick.  I have no strangely irrational irritation with this particular group of unknowns.  Let’s hope they someday turn into “Knowns” and that the feeling remains the same.  Oh, and just because we’re on the topic, I was checking out Boyfriend’s new friends on Facebook and found his trainer (I think) to be friends with one of my high school classmates.  Small world.

And then there was today.  I came home feeling slightly annoyed.  I signed up for a bunch of account interviews, you see.  You get it – trying to put my name on lights without the annoying the rest of the world.  Anyway, I thought that Boyfriend would be keeping the same schedule next week, so I agreed to conduct interviews from 6:00 pm to 12:00 am (which means that I will be in a horrible, horrible mood for the most of next week).  Anyway, I later on found out that they might be changing schedules.  So I ask him if he could ask a little earlier what next week’s time will be.

“Di ko alam.”

Seriously?  Dude, you think you can try just a little bit harder?  It’s one question.  Would it have been so hard to respond with “Ay, I don’t know, pero I’ll try to ask.”  Haller?  Girlfriend trying to adjust here.  And no, I will not go into a soliloquy about the things I’ve done to make my schedule fit yours.  Digging up past issues is so 2007.  But I’ll never tell him that.  All the sassiness and the wittily-written comments apparently stop here.  In person I will be professional, polite and sweet (I couldn’t resist)… and passive aggressive.

Big Haha..

Holed Up in Our Room in Colorado

Drowning in the Hum of the AC

Blessed Be…

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